7/17/08

Ryan and I got back last night from a trip to Philadelphia to visit his mom and aunt.  We had a really nice time…even nicer than we expected.  Had a chance to relax and just kind of hang out, but still did some interesting things.  On Saturday we went to "Blob-fest."  The 1958 movie "The Blob" was filmed in Phoenixville, PA, and every year they have a big festival.  It was fun to see an old movie like that in the very theater where it was filmed 50 years ago.  We also had dinner in the home of an Amish family that Ryan’s aunt knows…that was pretty interesting (and tasty!).  We rode bikes a lot and watched a lot of movies.  Oh, and Ryan’s mom bought him a suit for our wedding.  Hopefully, we’ll be able to get it altered in time for his younger brother’s wedding at the end of August (his brother’s entire relationship has been shorter than our engagement!).

Our friend Ben picked us up from the airport last night, and when we dropped him off at the restaurant where his girlfriend (also our close friend) works, we ended up staying and hanging out.  (This is the other store of the restaurant where Ryan works, so we occasionally hang out with the employees at the bar after close).  While we were there, Elenore was saying how much she wants to go to Peru, and I was saying how that was a place I would like to go as well.  We entertained the idea of planning a trip for next summer, and then Ben reminded us that we had already talked about planning a trip to Montana next summer.  Of course we can’t do both, so I said that we’d have to do one next summer and the other the summer after that.

On our way home, I was talking with Ryan about it and I suddenly had the terrifying realization that if we stick to our current plans, there is no way we can do both of these trips.  We could go somewhere next summer, but the summer after that, we are hoping we will be having our first child.  Since I work in the school system, it is important for us to try and plan these things out as much as possible, and to try to have a baby during the summer vacation.  It suddenly struck me for the first time though….we have been talking about having a baby within a couple of years, which would mean that in just over a year from now we would start trying to conceive.  This is a truly terrifying thought! =)   In so many ways, I am so ready to start a family with Ryan, but is anyone ever really ready?  I think that we will be good parents, and the thought is very exciting, but it’s also very intense to realize how near the time probably is.  I mentioned this to Elenore after I thought about it, and she looked at me like I was crazy.  First of all, she isn’t the kind of person to plan something like that so far in advance…second of all, she’s just not in that place in her life right now.  She is several years younger than me and Ryan, and her boyfriend is even younger.  But Ryan just turned 30, and I will be 30 in a few months, and I don’t want to wait too long to start a family.  At any rate, it made me think that maybe we should try to make one of these trips a reality before things get too complicated!

What a crazy, frightening, exciting time!