My life as of now….O.o

Well…I have been thinking of writing another entry for a while.

And seeing as I feel like i don’t really have any friends who want to listen to me anymore, I suppose I have turned back to this. xD

Something weird has happened inside of me. I am changing. I don’t know what is wrong. or…what is happening.

Yesterday was our Quiz Bowl competition…i’m the only one that has been on the team consecutively and most everyone else on our team had never been before. So…yeah…we sucked. We did better than last year, and next year I’m determined to do better! =P

Anyway…I’ve been bisexual for a while…but i’ve kind of had a boyfriend / obsession over a guy for the past 2 years…

And I don’t know whats happened…

Well..he’s hurt me a lot XD but that’s ever going…so..idk what made it change.

I don’t want to be with him anymore.

I can’t stand guys anymore.

I started crying because I realized that yesterday.

I told him about how i was feeling and how i felt mean and how i didn’t know what to do or what was happening…and he told me that i have to do it on my own and prove my love for him by getting over it. I don’t know what exactly i’m supposed to be getting over. /:

I hate Asians now. It’s a bad generalization, I know. I’m sure i could be friends with some of them..and i know they are good and smart and everything. D;<

Jacob fucked this asian girl and dated her for a few months and yeah…he started dating her the day after my birthday…after he did things with me. Which pissed me off to no end. So why did i go around loving him so much for so long? Pathetic as shit?

I don’t know.

And I don’t know why it’s changed now.

I want a girlfriend. I am tired of guys. I feel weird and confused and I need to do homework. XD

Yes….i’ll probably be writing more soon. <3