05/19/2010

Argh…i’ve backspaced everything i’ve written several times.

I don’t know what to write about. I do. But I don’t really want to. So.

Jacob turned 18 on May 12th. I had to wear a heart monitor that day..lol, that was interesting.

I got it taken off right before I went to his birthday party, so the tank top i was wearing showed all the lovely spots where the electrodes were at…but the party was good nevertheless.

I got to his house at about 4:30 and I helped him set everything up. It was great XD

He had kabobs and me and Kami brought cupcakes and chips and soda.

Lol, we took a like..5 year old toy box and turned it upside down in the grass to be the table. We totally don’t live in the south..at all. XD

Anddd Jacob set up his laptop and speakers and we played music and danced and spun around and set off small fireworks.

Jacob doesn’t think that he has any friends…but I went to his party, and so did Jon and Kami and Paul and Mandy. Mike wanted to go too but his mom wouldn’t let him since it was a school day. It felt kind of weird to be at Jacob’s house with other people. Idk. His little sister and 2 little brothers were there also. And his mom and dad and grandma.

I made him a dreamcatcher for his present. And I had already given him a video game. XD

His grandma threw the dreamcatcher away. x_x he flipped out at her and she’s like, you should learn not to keep your shit on my table.

I was like o.O…he broke his door and dumped all the trash on the ground and got it out. o.O

He went for his license today…he got the ID but he doesn’t have insurance so he can’t drive yet.

Sigh…i love him a lot…and not in those weird nasty romantic ways…its just..i would do anything for him.

Did I mention he’s..probably gay? Idk…he’s fickle. That’s what he says anyway…i told im that i don’t care, and that he should figure things out…cuz he wants to make me happy and i’m like…dude, don’t worry about me XD

I’m worrying about him though o.O..he deleted all of his depressing music. How….Why!? I mean..that’s good but o.O

That’s not like him…so, yeah…he’s been listening to a lot of techno and been being happy lately.

Idk, we’ll see how long this lasts. 😛 Maybe things are getting better.