03/15/2010

Yeah, so…its 5 am here. I’ve been up since like 3…got on my computer at 4 and started playing Runescape.

There is only 2 hours left in the bonus xp weekend, and i’ve only played it for 2 hours all weekend. :/

i just leveled to level 73, woot XD, i’m a nerd/dork/geek o.O XD

I think what i need is to be forgiven by a bunch of people. I’m in a slump and i can’t get out of it.

Its not depression really…but i dunno what it is.

I’ve been apologizing, or trying to…but to no avail. I don’t know what to do. Maybe i’m cursed.

I finished taking notes on 90 pages in art earlier.

YES…90 pages…we have a test today. Yippee. xD

and of course i put taking notes off until the last day possible.

I have an english assignment to do…i have to listen to some blues song and write about how i feel to it.

I dunno..that’ll probably be depressing or just weird. XD

I’m starving…i’m going to make some oatmeal in about an hour. lol

Jon seems to be having problems with his bf….idk why, but his bf keeps saying there is no point to life.

i’m like…stupid fucker, thats my job! XD

Yeah, but seriously….i’ve gotten out of that mode of thinking sort of.

I don’t think there is no point to life, i just gotta find it…and we’re here so we might as well live it, but still.

Maybe its a teen thing…i hate blaming it on that, but idk, you don’t usually see adults with this problem.

Lol XD My mom keeps telling me I need to grow up. :/ I really don’t want to though.

Yesterday i tried to explain some of this to my dad…about how i feel, and how i don’t know why i feel this way…

and he got mad at me and asked me if i wanted "psychological help"….argh.

I can’t share my feelings with my family, they never listen and if they do they hear things that i didn’t say.

Such as…i don’t know the point of life…= you’re going to kill yourself or do you expect us to answer that!? RAWR. XD:

I dunno. I really do want that oatmeal. 😛

But yeah…after my dad got mad at me for sharing my feelings I cried…i’ve been crying a lot lately….but he came into my room and asked me what i expected him to do and i said…well you could just say everything’s gonna be alright and give me a hug. He then went on to say well of course everyhting’s going to be alright, now give me a hug. And i hugged him. 😀

He hugged me like 3 times yesterday…voluntarily. Which is good, but that doesn’t usually happen.

It’s not that my parents don’t hug me, rofl, its just that i usually hug them. =P

Lalala, i guess i’m off to tackle another day. Look out world, here I come!

Kara Out o.O, sorry..wanted to sound like a person from a 90’s radio show…xD!