Making Homemade Brownies

Well, I realize that i’ve been on hiatus (that’s used correctly here, right?) for quite a while now…around three-four months or so…but, i’m hopefully back now! 😀

I just haven’t felt like writing a blog…and with a helpful push from one of my friends, , i do feel like it….

So, i’ve written a few poems in my abscence, and 2 in particular in the style of Edgar Allan Poe’s The Raven…which is particularly interesting and I like them…they don’t do his poem justice, but the style is fun to write in. 🙂

I’m making homemade brownies, because i was wanting some and we didn’t have a mix…and we don’t usually make things from scratch, but i’ve been getting into cooking lately and i decided that i might as well try! 😀 The batter tasted good, i guess we’ll find out if they were worth it or not… 😛

Jacob…my boyfriend, we broke up in october…well, he broke up with me on october 15th…and then i started playing Runescape.

I’ve been playing it for months now, and i’m almost level 72, lol…i’ve had to go weeks without playing it due to homework though.

Jacob asked me back out on January 27th…and we’ve been dating ever since, but it never really felt like we broke up except for the fact that we didn’t like…kiss and stuff. But, eventually we started doing that again..and yeah..he decided to ask me back out.

He told me that it was because he needed me…i dunno. I’m just going with the flow.

I know i’m young, but i feel like i will be with him for the rest of my life, whether we are together or not…ya’know that feeling? That someone will stay with you throughout the rest of your life, even if you go for a period without talking to them…they are always there for you if you need them and stuff? Well..yeah…that’s kind of what i feel, but i feel i will always be in contact with him…if not with him.

That’s not some weird love stricken teenage statement, it’s a…statement that sounds like it…but i’m not fooling myself…i know how things go…they can go wrong…a lot of the time…but i’m hoping they won’t. Hope is such a wonderful thing, isn’t it?

Lately Jacob has been getting so cryptic in things…it’s so confusing. :l

I might post some stuff about that later…lol, don’t want to overwhelm you on my first post in what seems like forever! XD

I’m taking so many classes this semester…and they are hard classes! I have Spanish 1 College Level and Spanish 1 Highschool Level, and a College Art History class and Honors Civics Highschool (this has got to be the hardest class, he gives the most homework i’ve ever gotten from a teacher!) and English III Highschool, and Biology Highscool…blah XD

I have an art test monday…and I have to finish reading The Scarlet Letter by monday because we have a test on that..and we just started reading it on Wednesday. I don’t read that fast!! 😛 I have 100 pages left…and I need to make a Cell model for Biology and answer 128 questions about the Constitution of the United States of America…for civics…argh XD Oh well, i got myself into this…i’ll survive! XD

I’ve been listening to David Bowie all day! Lol, i love him…it brings me back to 8th grade because I used to listen to him all the time then. I found a Nirvana cover song for one of his songs…i think it was called the man who sold the world..or something. It was cool.

The brownies smell like they are almost done…i’ve checked them twice since i started writing this…lol

I am going to my grandma’s tomorrow..i haven’t went over there since Christmas probably…and she only lives 5 minutes away…i feel like a bad granddaughter, but i’ve been really busy lately…but i truly do enjoy spending time with her..she’s getting old and it was my idea to go see her tomorrow..i’m worried about her…she’s been seeming more forgetful lately. I’m going to try to spend more time with her. 🙂

*brownies are out!* 😀

So..the other day, I went to Walmart (the biggest chain grocery store in the US) and my sister had to go to the bathroom. So, with her not being old enough to go alone, I had to walk her…so I walked her and there are benches outside of it, so i just sat down on one. And, on a bench beside of me was this elderly woman, and I was wearing my yellow scarf and I was really happy, lol…so I smile at her and she smiles back and says hey…And then I start talking to her and she tells me all about her life and how she likes to people watch because she knows so many people and idk, it just really struck a chord in me…and it made me think and be happy and…it was good. I know that it’s random but it just really inspired me. o_O =)

I don’t know what it is..but I really get along with children between the ages of 4-6 and with elderly people that are like..over 65. I’m not sure why, but I do…we become instant friends..or whatever you’d like to call it. I guess it’s because I can be a good listener. 🙂

I’ve been rather down for the last couple of months, I can’t particularly figure out why…it’s just been escalating. I’ve resolved to stop it, and be happy again. I only have this life right now, and I plan on utilizing it the best and greatest that I can. =D

My aura has apparently been really dark lately and it used to almost always be light…i plan on making it that way again.

So…I think i’m going to go have myself a brownie! 😀 I shall write again soon, hopefully! And be back to read some of my friends writings too…i miss you guys, sorry i’ve been gone so long.

-Kara-