Nojomo #14

 

The challenge today is easy post my 14th OD entry.

Here it is!

I’ve made it to 36!!!
 
Friday, May 02, 2008

Four or five years ago if you were to tell me that I would be divorced, living on my own with a great job that I enjoy and am appreciated at, plus be a single mother of a beautiful 16 mos old lil boy, I would have thought you were crazy.

Three years ago I was in the worse place of my entire life and seriously doubted that I would ever find any kind of happiness.  Life turned for the worse and then got even more worse.  I haven’t shared my story over here much but needless to say I am a survivor.  I survived, rape and also an abusive marriage and a fatal illness.  (the rape was not from my ex but he did orchestrate it to happen). I nearly lost my life and lost all hope even when I was starting to get better, because things only got worse.

I can look back and see how I managed to survive and praise God that He had put people in my life to help me through it all.  I had also started a good support system with friends and seeing a therapist and had a good doctor right before everything fell apart and happened.  I know now that god was looking after me and preparing me for everything.  I just couldn’t see it then.

Annie was a rock in my life during all of what I went through.  She cared enough to reach out to me and call me and keep in touch and give me hope.  You may all know her as MOrrigu.  We have known each other for a very long time and I am in deed greatful for her friendship and support.  Another good friend Eli and her husband were there for me too.  They both would stay on the phone with me as I was crying or scared or wishing life would just end.

Yes I rose above it all and am a much stronger and happier woman.  I did suffer extreme depression and anxiety and was treated for it.  I was on a long medical leave and was able to heal and grow and find life was in deed worth living.

annie can tell you how I was never able to conceive or if I did I ended up miscarrying and had given up hope on ever being a mother.  Little did I know that once out of that horrible marriage would I manage to have a child.  I had never wanted to do it on my own nor was I trying to have a child especially with the idiot who is my son’s sperm donor but it happened.  Sure matt the sperm donor is an idiot but he did give me an awesome gift in my son Kyle.

I also found a job doing something I love and I am doing well at it and am being rewarded for a job well done.  It feels good knowing that if I have to work to support my son I am at least not miserable doing it.

When I returned from my maternity leave I met a young handsome wonderful man.  He is a hippie rocker type of guy.  He graduated from college with a degree in philosophy.  We are so very much alike and he loves me so much!  He also is so good to Kyle and Kyle totally adores him too.

For the past year and a half I was staying with my folks and have recently moved into my own place.  I love it here and it has been great making it a home for Kyle and I. 

So without going into too much detail I have explained why this birthday is so awesome to me.  I am 36 years old and the happiest I have ever been.  I never thought this kind of happiness was ever possible.