did that just happen?

I’m in a relationship again.  I’m not sure how, I’m not sure what happened exactly but…yeah.

Smack me?

I am terrified this will end badly.

I’m hoping it doesn’t.

All that I’ve ever known or experienced tells me to not bother but I am.

I feel like a complete idiot for trying again.

I feel like a fool if I don’t.

This guy is great.  When we’re together, I’m the center of his attention.  If he texts, he’s open about it, doing it right in front of me and letting me read (if I so choose) what he writes.  I don’t ask him to read them, he just does it so openly that I can see it.

He’s not perfect.  He’s kind of a loser actually, in that absolutely a dork sort of a way.  Not really sure how to describe it and too damn tired/overwhelmed to try tonight.  Maybe tomorrow or Thursday.

Tomorrow he’s coming to dinner.  He’s meeting my mom.  I’m really scared of tomorrow but he keeps telling me he wants to meet her and find out why I’m so weird about my mother (he told me I look like her and I told him to f*** himself).

Oh, and my celibacy?  It’s over.  Yeah….

We’ll talk about that later too.