NoJoMo Day 13: as promised

An entry for day 13.

Today was…meh. I guess that’s the best way to describe it. It hasn’t been good or bad either way really. Worked all day but it went by fast. Up early but I still have some energy for the moment. Quinn texted me about hanging out last night but has so far bailed. He’s got a new girlfriend apparently and that was like getting kicked in the gut which reminded me that I still am dealing with my feelings for him and that I still seem to have feelings of some kind for him but I didn’t bust out bawling or anything. My heart dropped to the floor and yeah, I was hurt again for a minute or two. Then I remembered Isaac and I let it go. Those feelings are unhealthy and the past. My present is good. That bodes well for my future, right?

As for moving, after spending a great deal of last night tossing and turning trying to get to sleep (did I mention I ended up being up until 2am?) I have decided that moving is going to be the biggest pain in the butt ever. Why? I simply own too much crap. If I end up moving, my goal is to consolidate as I go. Get rid of things I don’t wear or use. But on the upside, moving also means I’d get to spread out a little bit. I could keep food in the kitchen as opposed to stashed randomly in my room to keep people from eating it. We’ll see. Moving is in the future for sure, it’s a matter of when and where-to at this point so I’m not going to panic about it. I’ll deal with it when it’s in the present. So until then, I won’t think about it, I’ll just do what needs doing at the moment. However I will start watching my finances a bit more and see about saving some money up in spite of Christmas shopping. Heck for all I know once Caleb gets down here, he and I might move in together lol. Or in a few months Isaac and I could end up moving in together somewhere (when the divorce is finalized and he’s back active rather than reserve so we’re talking May/June at the earliest lol). You never know what life is going to do to you or what’s going to come next so it’s best to take it as it happens.

*sigh*

I’m tired but I don’t want to nap because then I will be up late again and I’m so tired that I just really need to get back onto a sleep cycle of some kind before I drop from exhaustion. I apparently looked a bit like a zombie today at work which is usually a clue you need to do something about sleep. Oh well.

I’m working on laundry and cleaning but I think I’ll take a break to play some Fable. I haven’t played all week so I think I deserve an hour or two of game-time.