NoJoMo Day 11: sore *edit*

Today is one of those days when I just feel old.  It probably doesn’t help that Isaac and I had sex twice last night, only slept for about 5-ish hours, had a mild incident with the birds last night so I had to wake up at 4am to take care of them (one of them was acting like she’d gotten hurt so I’ve been watching her closely today, I think she was faking though, I named her Diva for a reason lol).  It really doesn’t help that one of the times we had sex we were definitely going at it for about an hour lol and it was 6am and we had to be up at about 7:30am to take him to work so we didn’t go back to sleep when we were done.  And I don’t have time for a nap.  Womp womp!

I work 3 to 10 tonight, then open at 8am tomorrow, work until 3, have a skype date at 4:30, supposed to be trying to hang out with one of the guys this weekend, possibly tomorrow night but definitely not trying to be out all night since I have an 8am store meeting followed by 7 hours of working…*dies*  Too much going on this weekend.  I’m just looking forward to Tuesday, day off!  Sleeping in, cleaning, accomplishing things.  It’ll be so nice.  

Ok, I’m going to go attempt to take a quick nap before I have to get to work.  I will probably update again later tonight when I get off work.

So my nap was a fail.  It was mostly just me laying there in bed with my eyes shut for about 30 minutes, my brain still on and processing full-tilt.  It was partly because the bed still smells like sex and the pillow I was using was the one that Isaac used last night so it smelled like him.  Yeah….about that, lol.  

But I also remembered what I was going to say earlier.

So in the month and a half or so that Isaac and I have been dating, I have been repeatedly informed that Isaac (and his brothers) are not the jealous/possessive type.  They are all pretty laid-back, especially when it comes to dating, and this is true from what I’ve seen (bear in mind, I’ve known 2 of his 3 brothers for a year now lol).  I have flirted (mind you it’s never on purpose unless I’m joking around) with guy friends around Isaac and he’s never so much as really blinked at it.  Which I found very refreshing, a guy who didn’t get all possessive and clingy because I’m a flirt!!!

Yay, right?  

Well sort of.  Any girl that says that they don’t want a jealous/possessive guy is full of shit.  Honestly!  The reality is there is a fine line that guys have to walk when it comes to jealousy/possessiveness.  We don’t want a guy who will smother us with his attention and needs and cling to us or throw a tantrum when we even so much as look at another guy in a way that they don’t like.  But we also don’t want a guy who doesn’t notice that other guys pay attention to us.  Women actually DO want you to be a little jealous, a little possessive, it makes us feel more wanted, it let’s us know that you are paying attention and more importantly that you without a doubt do NOT want any guy to get the impression that we are available.  We want you to want guys to know that we belong to you!!  

When a guy claims a girl in public it should be sweet and simple and understated.  Hold our hand, lean in and kiss our cheek, play with our hair, small gentle things like that are such a great way to stake your turf as a guy and to earn sweetness points with your girl!  

Honestly I have met girls who swear up and down that they want a guy who is not possessive or jealous at all.  And yet if a guy behaves like this towards them, they melt.  Dead serious!  This is an act of possession usually driven by jealousy!  I mean come on, wake up and smell the coffee!!  LOL

So anyways, getting back to MY point!  In the last month and a half, Isaac has shown zero jealousy.  He has done things that could be construed as possessive but as they are things he does in our normal day-to-day behavior and not just when we are out most of the time I would not consider them as possessive (ie-holding my hand, playing with my hair, putting his hand on my lower back, holding me, kissing my cheek or forehead).  I have never seen him behave in any fashion that would be construed as jealous though.

I stand corrected!!!  I KNOW!!!  I didn’t believe it at first, heck I didn’t even notice it because I wasn’t looking for it at all.  

So I went over to their house and Isaac was fiddling with the computer, downloading movies to his Macbook and Dos and I were sitting on his bed goofing around and playing games and just being childish and stupid really.  For him and I it’s perfectly normal behavior, and yeah it’s a little flirty but neither of us mean anything by it we just enjoy joking around.  We act like this at work, that’s how normal it is!  Apparently it caught Isaac off-guard that Dos and I REALLY do behave like that around each other.  He was busy fiddling away and I was trying not to distract him from what he was doing so I just mostly was paying attention to Dos until Isaac was done and we were leaving.  He was really, really quiet, which is a bit unusual for him but not totally out of character when he’s tired.  As we’re leaving the house he makes a comment along the lines of "anybody would be jealous" and I go "Wait, were you jealous?"  

He was jealous of the attention that I was paying his brother!  Not totally green-eyed monster, he says that particular button is unmistakable because he can and actually does get snippy if it’s pushed but he was jealous of all the attention I was giving Dos instead of him.  That was why he’d gotten so quiet!  He actually did get jealous.  That just amuses the heck out of me!  I really wasn’t sure he was capable of it!  

So I had to bolster his ego a little bit after that.  It’s just nice that he didn’t go psycho possessive when he got jealous.  He just let it go until we were in private which was nice.    Not like I’m going to go looking to make him jealous or anything, but it’s comforting to know that he CAN actually get jealous/possessive.  (*snickers* even with his own brother!)

Sorry, I’m probably making NO sense at this point.  I’m exhausted physically and mentally and I have to be up in 8 hours at 7am in order to be at work at 8am and then I’m there until 3pm and lucky us, it’s the day that all the big wigs and managers will be touring the district and scoring each other.  So we spent tonight cleaning and straightening.  We already have a nice chore list for the morning because the manager that closed tonight with me is also opening with me in the morning lol.  We made our game-plan already.  I still have to hit the shower, that way I can sleep in until 7:15am.  Yes, that extra 15 minutes is THAT important! LOL  Then after work I have to head to the post office and mail the care package.  In suckiest news of all today, they lost a soldier in their unit this week.  His vehicle took a hit from an IED on Monday and it killed him.  A care package seems like so little next to that news but it’s all I can give them from here, that and all my prayers.

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