NoJoMo Day 6: early start

So I don’t think I will actually be able to post on 11/6 but since I’m participating in NoJoMo (November Journaling Month for those who don’t know), I’d like to actually be able to say that I posted every day in November. But I’ll be spending 11/6 in my car driving and then with my sisters at Uni celebrating our Sorority’s one-hundred-and-eleventieth birthday (Cookie to whoever gets the reference first. Winners will be notified by note-back lol). I’ll be super busy from start to finish I’m sure and won’t have time (or more likely I won’t have internet access) to post an entry on Saturday itself.

I talked to Isaac for a bit. He was on a bus waiting to drive out with the boys to the fort for their little training or whatever. He was his typical sweet guy, told me ‘goodnight princess’ like he normally does. I think part of my frustration with him is that whole ‘not good enough’ thing I’ve talked about before. I know I’m a catch and thank you to all the wonderfully sweet noters who have told me so in the past when I’ve posted about these feelings. Knowing I’m a catch however, no matter how many people tell me so, doesn’t stop my heart from feeling like I’m not good enough to be dating him. I guess I can’t help worrying when his behavior changes, wondering if this is it, is this the moment when he gets tired of me, when he realizes I’m not good enough and walks out like so many others have. Gawd I have such a complex about this stuff! And I’m still so gun-shy after Quinn which doesn’t help at all. But then I touch his tags and remember that he trusted me enough, cared about me enough to give me his tags. I’m pretty sure it’s not just an idle gesture. I mean, they have his SSN on them for goodness sake. Pretty sure he wouldn’t give them to just any girl lol.

I have a little bit of a headache but that’s okay, it’s from dehydration I know that. Yes I’m hydrating. I had a ton of chocolate and some soda so I’m feeling much more cheerful. I’m definitely feeling much better than I was earlier today. Partly due to having talked to Isaac a bit today, partly because I am getting excited for my trip tomorrow, partly because I had chocolate and caffeine lol.

I will get to post on Sunday and I will tell all the exciting (if not necessarily good) details about the trip. Not sure what time Isaac will be getting back on Sunday but I’m sure it will be after me since I’ll be getting back probably around noon or so, if I even do end up deciding to spend the night. We’ll see. I’ve packed just in case I do decide to spend the night so it’s all good either way. Not going to lie, I want to beat him back so I can maybe pick him up from the Armory. Yes, I am determined to see him in full gear and be a complete tease to myself! LMAO What can I say, I really do love a man in uniform. But on the up-side, depending on the weather, if i did get to pick him up I might be a tease to him to and wear a skirt. (S/N: What is it about guys and skirts? Just about every guy I know has a thing for a girl in a skirt.)

Oh well. I need to put my butt to sleep since I plan to be up by 8 so I can be out of the house by 9. Yes I really do need an hour to get out of the house. This is not a normal thing, this is only because I’m going on a car-trip. I am notorious for rushing to get out the door, getting to the car and realizing I’ve forgotten something, turning around and getting it, then repeating this process 2-5 times. I’ve put everything in one spot though. My overnight bag, both pairs of shoes for tomorrow, all my toiletries are packed in my bag, my bag of goodies for the girls. My clothes are on the foot of my bed, my jewelry and stuff is all together on my dresser. My charger cord for my Ipod is with my bag. I’m not bringing the GPS because I know this route by heart. I’ll probably throw in the book too, just in case I do have some down-time. I have a Monster in the fridge for in the morning and a kudos bar in my purse to last me until the luncheon after the ceremony. If I really get hungry there is a Wawa halfway between here and Uni (seriously, I know this route!!! LOL) and I can stop and get something if I need to. The animals have food for the weekend.

See, that whole paragraph is why it takes me an hour to get out of the house for a car-trip. LMAO