NoJoMo Day 5: maybe I’m too demanding

I expect a lot of people. When they behave a certain way that’s how I expect them to continue to behave. Which means I get disappointed a lot and also means I get bent out of shape, sometimes over completely stupid and inane things.

I haven’t seen Isaac all week, not once since Halloween. Not a big deal right? He’s been sick. He’s been working both of his ‘jobs’. He’s doing the Army thing this weekend I’ll be going out of town anyway. No big deal. But he went out last night with Dos and somehow that has set me off into a fit of the grumps. It shouldn’t have though. He and Dos both worked at the store last night so they both got off at the same time when it closed. They haven’t hung out much lately because Isaac has been working and sick recently and before then he was spending time with me or Dos was spending time with his little love-interest.

So why am I so resentful of the fact that he was spending time with his brother?!?! I mean, I feel like I’m crazy for being even a bit upset with him over this.

Maybe it’s because he is still sick but he went out to a bar with his brother.

Maybe it’s because I’m not getting the level of attention that I’m used to from him. I mean, he used to text me good morning every morning. He hasn’t in over a week. He used to take time to text me through the day even if he was at work. Now he’s ‘really busy’ all the time while he’s at work. Which is good because he was starting to think he might lose one of his jobs because they weren’t doing enough business.

But I’m still so…grumpy.

Maybe I’m PMSing. I don’t do it very often. Oddly I just have mood swings in my normal day-to-day life and people think it’s PMSing when really I’m just in a bad mood.

Maybe I am just in a bad mood.

Maybe it’s a combination of things.

I don’t know. I just know this mood is really getting on my nerves. The fact that I am grumpy annoys me and makes me even more grumpy. I need something amazingly good to happen to shake me out of these grumps. Preferably before I say or do something stupid, which I am known for doing in this kind of a mood.

*sigh* I need to do something. Maybe I need a soda, or maybe chocolate. I know I need cuddles or something, some kind of caring human contact. I know I’m missing that right now.