where does the time go? *edit*

It’s strange to think another year is almost over.  I was looking at my last entry and saw my little counter thing.  228 days since Quinn and I broke up….

I still have moments where I miss him so desperately it’s physically painful.  I still cry myself to sleep missing him some nights wishing he were next to me in bed again.

It’s kind of sad that 2010 is almost over.  It’ll be time to start another chapter in a few months.  Weird.

Of course now I’m wondering what my holidays will be like.  Last year there was a lot of time spent with Quinn.  We rang in the new year together.  Fat lot of good that old saying is.  

Isaac I think is going to bail out of our plans for tomorrow.  I asked him today if 5 would be okay to meet up.  I get off at 4, have to run and help my uncle with something, then change so I figured 5 would be a good time.  He said he wasn’t sure yet.  He’s off tomorrow.  How can he not be sure?  He has the day to himself as far as I know but then maybe he has to help his parents, I don’t know.  But I don’t think we can hang out too late because I’m supposed to be going out tomorrow night for a friends birthday.  It’s a friend from the store and since we were trying to keep everything low-key and private I’m pretty sure he wouldn’t want to come with us out to the bar.  So yeah.  He told me he would let me know.  I’m really sort of expecting him to just end up bailing.

This sucks.  I was all happy and excited last night because he came and saw me at work and he kissed me in public and now I’m all annoyed with him all over again.  I think it’s mostly because I went from getting a lot of his attention all of last week, to getting pretty much none of it this week.  In my head now it’s like there is an expectation of how he should be and now he’s not and it’s annoying me.  Plus there is the whole ‘not knowing what’s happening here’ thing.  Like if I knew he was interested in me, seriously genuinely interested, I think I’d have more patience for the whole sudden lack of attention coming my way.  *sigh*

This just makes me more convinced I should never ever bother trying to date ever ever again.

 Isaac is apparently working tomorrow and he doesn’t know when he’ll get off so that’s why he isn’t sure when we’d get to hang out tomorrow.  I also told him about the party tomorrow night.  Yeah.  We could probably go together but the whole trying not to be ‘out’ together especially by people at work as we don’t want them all involved in …. whatever this is …. at least for as long as we are still trying to sort things out ourselves.  

He came to see me at work tonight because I asked him and tonight he has been very attentive.  He texted me within minutes of us closing (he knows when we get out of the pharmacy which is roughly about the time we close) and has continued to text me even though he is supposed to be asleep.  He’s the energizer bunny and has a hard time falling asleep until late at night/early in the morning.  But yeah, I asked him to stop by the pharmacy and see me.  He didn’t respond so I didn’t think he’d show but he did and again he sort of hung around for a few minutes while I worked and we talked when I had the time.  He kissed me again as he was leaving, then 2 more times before he made a quick boob-grab to make me laugh and I chased him out of the store.  

See that’s the Isaac I know!  Attentive and funny and sweet.

Hrmmmm.  Silly boys and their silliness.

 

 

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