radio silence

I haven’t posted much the past few days because I am house-sitting.  The house doesn’t have internet *gasp* I know!!! Shocking right?  Don’t be too surprised, it’s my grandfather and he’s 80 years old.  He doesn’t understand the internet, much less use it lol.  I’d like to post, I’d like to read my favorites and note them too but I don’t have time.  I’m hopping on really quick right now while I’m home picking up clean clothes for today.  I need to find out still if I work at the store tomorrow and then if I do pick up my work clothes.  I’m supposed to be house-sitting until next Wednesday-ish so I’ll have to get clean clothes and shower stuff for Monday and Wednesday when it comes around.  I indulged in a shopping trip today and actually spent some of my hard earned cash on myself!  I bought some Halloween scrapbooking supplies, a new book and a book on puppy-training for mom, 6 pairs of socks (the cute kind with movie/cartoon characters on them), 3 new pairs of shoes (as a concession though I did finally throw away my ratty old running shoes and a pair of nice boots that I actually broke and kept ‘to fix’ but after several months of non-fixing, I’m being good and just getting rid of them *winces*).  I also bought a new hairbow (I have this phase I’m in right now with wearing hairbows like a kid, they make me cheerful lol).  I also bought a new umbrella since I am constantly misplacing mine and borrowing someone else’s and with all the rain we had earlier this week it was a good idea.  The best part?  I only spent less than $60 on all of that stuff!  The books were the most expensive thing.  Everything else was either on sale or from the dollar section (yay Target!)  I spent $35.62 at Target and $23.04 at Borders.  I feel very proud of myself for that.  Isaac spent the night last night again.  Again there was messing around (a lot of it, I won’t bother trying to hide that) but again, no sex!  I’m so proud of me!!!  I don’t know what to make of Isaac honestly.  I am denying myself all those bothersome paranoid instincts that make me want to ask a bajillion questions about ‘what we are’ and ‘where is this going’.  He has hinted a couple times that he isn’t sure either and wants to know and I have deftly avoided the question.  I don’t want to think about where this might go, at least not where he can know about it lol.  I don’t know what I want these days other than that I want an amazing white knight in shining armor to sweep me off my feet.  Isaac isn’t a white knight but he’s eerily close sometimes.  I’ll definitely have to stay on my toes around him to make sure that things don’t get too comfortable or too close.  I can’t afford to let my guard down.  Neither can he really.  I mean, he’s already divorced twice and has 2 children, one by each ex-wife.  Apparently one of his brothers advised him ‘to be careful’ because of his bad luck with women.  They know that we are hanging out but have promised not to say anything about it at work.  I don’t want the whole store in our business, wanting to know what’s going on, especially given that we don’t know what’s going on.  I like my private life private and if it got out at the store, that would be the end of it I’m pretty sure.  Okay, time to go and get stuff done.  I have a full schedule for the day and I need to get on it.  =)  Hopefully here so I can actually note my faves and all that fun stuff.  =)

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