a little of this

So I didn’t go to the wedding. It was just too much hassle at the last minute and I would have ended up late for work. So instead I donated blood. =) It wasn’t a fair exchange but it felt right. I would have liked to go to the wedding but it just was too much stress, too late notice, too everything really. There will be other weddings eventually.

I’ve remained celibate and it sucks. I can’t lie. I miss sex. I’m a very physical person and I enjoy touching and being touched. Having to go without, especially for this long, is driving me crazy. Of course it doesn’t help that there have been those teases along the way too. But I’ve gotten rid of them. Gabe is dating someone now and I never see Christian or the Drama Club these days. In fact I flat out deleted 2 of them the other day because I got tired of dealing with their bullshit. Go me for that much at least!

I work tomorrow and Saturday. I hate not getting more hours. It sucks. I neeeeed money like crazy and I’m just not making it. Soon I’m going to have to either tell the pharmacy goodbye or trade to another one where I can get hours or something. This making 4 hours a week from them is just not going to cut it for much longer. Ugh.

As for guys, Quinn has been silent for a while and I’m glad. I’ve been hanging out with the guys from work and enjoying the company and the attention with no demands. They don’t want to date me or anything. We flirt and have fun and joke and it’s meaningless and it is perfect for me right now. No demands for my attention, no worrying about meanings or innuendos. Just me being me and hanging out with my friends.

I have however re-discovered my obsession for men with long hair. Enjoy the sexiness =) I did ; )