trying to warm up
It is freezing today. Not surprising since they are forecasting snow but kind of annoying all the same. I really dislike being cold. I don’t just mean "Oh, it’s cold outside" cold I mean my whole house is freezing cold, I have the space heater blasting and I still can’t feel my fingers cold. It’s ridiculous. I don’t mind cold weather, I enjoy it really, but I hate a could house. It’s silly to have to bundle up inside your own home like you’re going out in a blizzard. And yeah it costs to heat up a house but it doesn’t help that our house is crazy drafty and they don’t bother to do anything about it like replace our old drafty windows or at least get those little insulator snakes that you can put on them to stop drafts. Gah!
It also sucks that I am warmer at work then at home. I work cash lanes at BBY at the front of the store with the doors opening every 5 minutes and I still manage to stay warm there. But not at home? That’s just sad.
Quinn and I are doing great, which is great. He’s being very attentive this week. He has cycles I’ve noticed. One week he’ll be very attentive even clingy and then the next I can barely get him to text me. We had a discussion the other day about something very personal, for him at least. It’s been just over a year since he and his last girlfriend broke up, but this was the girl who he had been dating since high school and he had honestly planned on marrying. And we got to discussing how different his life would have been. He’d be engaged right now, he’d be transferring/transferred to her school, they’d probably be living together, just a whole long list of things that are different from where he had expected them to be when he was with her. He didn’t say anything negatively or longingly. The whole conversation had more of the tone of someone who is in awe or incredulous of something. It was like he hadn’t thought about how different his life would have been. And let’s face it he probably hadn’t. Most people don’t sit around wondering at the difference in their life because of the path they took. It’s something you really only do when you’re prompted to by someone or something else. I mean, I know how different my life could have been but that’s because I tend to be introspective like that and I read back to my old entries and shake my head at the plans I had for my life. Oh well.
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