beginning to dislike

I live.  I know, surprise right?  I don’t feel very alive right now.  I feel more like jumping off a high bridge.  And not for personal reasons for once!  Apparently my student loans (which were due for repayment in May 2010, a year after graduation) have come up for repayment thanks to the economy I guess.  Problem is they started into repayment last month.  So I am behind on 2 different loan repayment plans.  I will be shelling out almost $700 by Jan 2 to catch up my loan payments.  I really need to get back into school so I can defer some of these payments.  That way I can go back to paying $50 here, $50 there on interest and crap and not have $400 a month just on loans!!!  AGH!  And I haven’t even started my Christmas shopping and now I have to pay all this stuff too.  I am glad that Uni gets out this weekend and I won’t have to road trip for 5-6 weeks.  Driving up to see Quinn at his folks’ is only 45 minutes and not 2 hours so I won’t have to use as much gas plus he hopes to have a job for the break and have some money coming in too so he can come visit.

*deep breath*

On the upside, CVS training is going well.  I had class today and will be doing training on Wednesday.  Then I will be working for real, real schedule with my CVS and we’ll see from there.  Hopefully the next 4 Fridays will see me getting the paychecks I have calculated getting so that I can pay my loan stuff and buy some Christmas gifts.  It means taking a lot of cutbacks on stuff I enjoy like my foods and sodas too.  But I’ve factored in still having $20 or so a week for food for when my family forgets to feed me.  We’ll see how this works out. *sigh*

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