Secret 29

I cry during pretty much every book and movie that I read, at least the first time through.  Very few movies actually make me cry every time that I see them.  In fact, usually by the third or fourth time I watch a movie or read a book I am all dried up.  I have to be in a particularly weepy mood to cry over repeat movies actually.  But I think there is something particularly cathartic about crying.  I know most people would look at me like I’m crazy, especially the butch guys and girls out there.  But I’m serious.  I was raised by people who really believed crying was for the weak.  I still hate to cry in front of people because I feel vulnerable when I cry.  Few of my friends have seen me full out bawling my eyes out, the one time I didn’t care about being seen crying was when he killed himself last year.  I didn’t care who knew I was crying because it was the only way I could express how awful I was feeling inside.  I think everyone should be allowed to have at least one good, solid, full-on sobbing until you can’t breathe cry session a week.  It is an amazing stress relief.  And I know I feel better afterward and more able to face whatever it is that upset me with a clear and level head.

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