T -2 days to Florida

Tomorrow morning is Commencement.  Sunday morning my aunt and I will be leaving for Florida.  We’re going to spend some time with my mom and sister for Mother’s Day.  On the one hand I’m very excited and on the other I’m getting that very sad, sinking feeling.  I know why though.  It’s because I’m closing a huge chapter of my life.  And worse I’m going into the next chapter completely blind.  But I’m doing the best that I can to just not go insane and work myself into a panic attack.  I know part of the reason I can do that is that I have amazing friends and family that I can rely on.  It makes me feel incredibly blessed to know that I have wonderful people in my life who will support me no matter what is going on in my life.

And I truly think Quinn is one of those people now.  I went home Wednesday because I was tripping over boxes trying to pack.  Quinn came down and spent Wednesday and Thursday with me including spending the night.  He got along with my mother!!!  I was so shocked.  And he didn’t feel like bailing Thursday, in fact he agreed to skip training and spend an extra day with me (I was supposed to leave Thursday morning but I ended up staying until that night).  And even after having spent that much time with me, I got home last night and he came back from away (he likes to ‘hide’ that he is available) and talked to me for a good while, I went to the store, came back and we talked some more.  Then he got tired so I wanted to get in bed so he called me.  Now apparently he never calls anyone unless they say ‘hey call me’ and I have never said that.  So we talked for about half an hour and then we finally got off the phone so he could sleep because he had to be at training around 9 this morning.  I woke up this morning to a text from him that said ‘ Hey have a great day will be in training til 6 talk to you later tonight’.  I mean, how cute is that?  It’s wonderful.

We were talking a few nights ago about ‘lists’ that people have for what they want in a mate and I was naming off mine and he matched nearly all of them.  I even added another because of him.  He can hug me and actually crack my back which just feels amazing.  So I decided whoever I want to marry has to be able to crack my back too or I won’t keep him.  Hehe.

And Quinn is still coming to see me in June and going to the wedding with me.  We’re even talking about taking a trip to Baltimore with some friends to go to the aquarium which would mean spending the night at his place probably because he’s closer.  But if my godsister comes with us then we won’t spend the night, we’ll just drive up early in the morning.  I mean the trip to Baltimore from his place is maybe 2 hours or so.  And we’re supposed to go with friends so who knows yet when they’ll want to leave or if we’ll be commuting.  And of course there is my birthday celebration that will be happening about the same time.

: )

I might not have any certainties in my future right now and that pisses me off and worries me but I am fairly good with where my life is right now.  It’s not a bad place, just an inconvenient place and I am surrounded by great people.  

Ok, I need to go and pack since my family will be here in about 4 hours and then we’re supposed to go to dinner.  And I may even get my family to go to the bookstore.  Where we will probably get my degree frame, not that I really need one right now, I have no office to show it off in, haha.  But also they might get some stuff just for fun.  Its whatever.  I might also get them into some of the stores downtown which have some cute little things in them.  Ok, packing!

~*~*~Blessed Be~*~*~