a love affair

I’m watching An Affair to Remember and it makes me happy and sad.  Sad because the love gets so off track because people can be so stubborn but happy because there is a happy ending after all.  And really that’s all the matters.

Quinn went to see the girl out at the other school.  Funny though that apparently he is going out there to just hang out as friends.  Apparently he told her yesterday that he has figured out that ‘she doesn’t want him like that at least not now’ and that if she decides she has changed her mind she’ll have to prove it to him.  I was informed of this today when he and I went to dinner and afterward we were hanging out up in his room.  I knew he was going to see her and I was not happy about it and I’m a terrible liar so Quinn knew but I told him I just don’t like the idea that he is being played by this girl.  And that’s when he told me about the conversation they’d had.  I don’t know why but I’m getting the idea he’s made his choice and it might actually be me.  Oddly.  We’ll see.  He went out there about 7 and he’s planning to be back by about midnight and he said he’d call me when he got back.  He may end up next door at a party for a little while but no guarantees of course.  And he may end up here but also not guaranteed.  We’ll see how it went soon enough I’m sure.  It would be nice to come out the winner for once in affairs of the heart.  It would be such a change to not come in second place to someone else.

As for school, it keeps going.  Not very well of course but not poorly.  I may pass, I may not.  It’s up in the air for now I think.  I have started the process of packing.  I feel like for all that I packed I still have a ton of possessions left and that’s true.  *sigh*  I know that I have time still to get things sorted but I feel like I’m treading water and losing strength fast.  Some days are of course worse and some days are better.

Ok, back to work; this presentation won’t put itself together (though I wish it would).  And it’s distracting me from the clock and wanting to text Quinn and ask him how his visit is going.  And yes, I am that anxious to hear what has happened.  If she decided to finally make a move just to keep him dangling or something….well I wouldn’t be surprised but I would be upset.  Both for him, at her and at myself.  *sigh again*

~*~*~Blessed Be~*~*~