New Year’s Eve
So I sit here with about 2 hours to go until midnight. It’s hard to believe another year is over with…wow. And it’s ending on a very odd note.
Angel and I are not speaking right now, specifically I am not speaking to her. So I mentioned a while ago that I managed to get this guy she started seeing banned from the bar. It wasn’t my intention. I don’t like being crowded and I don’t like strangers. I can usually deal with them alright, particularly if I am in good company. But when a stranger (even one that is a friend of a friend kind of thing) who crowds me immediately pushes all my red-flag buttons and I start getting defensive and angry. Well Angel’s idiot little beau decided to start messing with me (and he was drunk btw). He yanked on my ponytail, I told him to stop, he did it again and I told him to leave me alone (again), then he proceeded to crowd me against the DJ booth even though the floor around us was pretty much empty. I was upset about it and so I went to one of the security guys to get help making this guy leave me alone. I didn’t care about him staying or going, just so long as he left me alone. Well as soon as I said the guy’s name the security guy gave this big sigh and rolled his eyes and said they’d had a number of complaints about him already. So they were going to kick him out for the rest of the night. Then of course the big idiot ran his mouth and started threatening one of the security guys so they banned him. None of which is obviously my fault. All I did was stand up for my own safety because flat-out, this guy scared me, he gave me the creeps and when my gut tells me something I listen because I’m usually right.
Well everyone decided to get involved in what wasn’t their business in the first place and ran their mouth and apparently got it into their heads that it was Angel who got him blacklisted just to be a bitch. They were getting on my nerves and the whole situation was really upsetting to me. Well the next day Angel texted me, yelling at me, telling me that I had fucked up her life and blah, blah, blah. She didn’t even care that I was upset by this guy she was (and is still) seeing and that I flat-out don’t like him at all. No, she didn’t care a bit. She’s out with him now. I’ve decided to wash my hands of this. She’s going to get herself hurt. The guy is way over-possessive and everything he does sets off the alarm of a guy who is abusive, and having been with a few of those myself I think I know those signs pretty darn well when I see them. But of course she hasn’t listened to a freaking word. And she got mad at me for standing up for myself and taking care of myself and "causing drama for her". Well if all you do is hang out at bars with drunk @ssholes, all your life is going to be is drama. The whole thing royally pissed me off!!!!!
However the year isn’t ending just on a sour note. I talked to Hunter a few days ago. We seem to be headed back to a good place when we get back to town. He says he has missed me and thought of me all the time we’ve been apart. He is very grateful (and apparently a little turned on) because I gave him the space he asked for when he asked for it to sort his thoughts out. He explained to me that he needed time to sort out whether what he felt for me was love or lust, and he needed time to think with his head and not his penis. But having had that time he really cares for me very strongly and I care about him similarly. I could very easy be falling in love with him, crazy as it sounds, I know. We won’t go into that here and now, I’d take to long. But needless to say we are going to get together when we get back to town and he said "If I ask you to stay the night again, it will be as my girlfriend. I am sure now." Which made me giddier than a june bug at a porchlight sale. *happy sigh* So I am now greatly looking forward to him coming home.
Oh well. Happy New Years folks. Here’s to 2009!!!! ^_^
~*~*~Blessed Be~*~*~
