that’s odd….

My final grades aren’t posted….They should have been posted yesterday but as of this morning, still nothing.  And for those going "Wait, then how do you know you failed your class?" there is a ‘backdoor’ point of entry in the degree evaluation audit we can request online which is where I saw all that information.  However my official grades haven’t posted to the main system so I’m wondering if they already came under administrative review or something and their being held.  All in all it is kind of weird. 

But I have a back-up plan for if I do still end up having failed the course.  None of the community colleges near me are offering the class I need over the summer (or in the fall) but there is one about 30 minutes away from Lexi’s place that is offering it as a 2-night-a-week class.  So if it comes to it I’m moving in with her from May until July apparently.  Which will kind of suck in that I’ll be quitting my job here WAY earlier than I expected and I’ll have to race to find a new job down there but if nothing else I’ll be a server for the summer.  After all, this one is only for the summer since I start my internship in the fall hopefully.  *crosses fingers*  And being that they are all of 30 minutes away from the biggest beach in the state I’d probably be making bank as a server.  I just really don’t want to be a server lol.  But hey, gotta take what you can get.  I’ll go ahead and get the word out with my managers at the store since I won’t be able to give a full 2-weeks notice if it does come down to going.  I think they’ll understand though since our store manager did the whole college thing even though she doesn’t do much with her English bachelors.  LOL  Ah well.

And I love how only 2 people (outside of OD) didn’t lecture me about failing.  One was Lexi and the other was B.  Everyone else basically in RL decided to get on my case and say "Well obviously you weren’t working hard enough" or "You shouldn’t have spent so much time with B" or "You should have stayed home and studied".  Um, ok, I spent pretty much every weekend in my apartment studying or working for school.  I saw B once a week that was it and I actually spent more than a few of our days together studying or working on projects or in group meetings for projects.  And that was about the only time (other than the weekends I had to come home to work) that I spent time on something other than school.  Did I always enjoy that I have no life?  That I almost never left my apartment, that I had no real friends that I hung out with at school?  Hell motherfawking no!!  But that’s just the way things had to be since I was studying and doing work 90% of my time.  But studying doesn’t necessarily equate with understanding material and it happens sometimes that you spend so much time on one subject you forget about the others and do last minute half-assed jobs for them…and sadly that’s probably part of why I got a C in my senior seminar because I would be so busy studying for organic chem that I’d completely forget about some damned thing I had to do for senior sem. until the last minute.

And I’m more fully aware than anyone of just what failing this class means and not just to my GPA.  It screws up everything in my fawking life!!  EVERYTHING!!!  OK?  So I don’t need to be even more pushed to homicide or suicide than I already am thank you very much.  Little miss perfectionist is quite aware that she’s not perfect but you’ll have to excuse her for the fact that this is the first class she’s ever failed IN HER LIFE and that she’s not handling it very well and that she’s struggling to get her feet back underneath her considering how much effort she put into this class just to see jack-shit returned!

*fumes*

I have to go get ready for work and forewarn them that I might be taking off suddenly.  Although it will suck in that I have doctors appointments the first week of the summer session.  *sigh*