weekended-ness

So B and I haven’t had the ‘relationship’ talk yet.  Although there have been other developments in our interactions.  We slept together.  >_<  And oh lord it was good.  It was so worth it.  At first we were just fooling around and it was no big deal, we’ve done it a million times.  He does things that make me just melt against him.  When he bites my neck or nibbles on my ear or runs his nails down my back or pins me to the bed or….ok, I have to stop or I’ll get all worked up and I have things to do and no time to really scratch that itch on my own.  ^_^  I have to run to the store in a few minutes with the roomie then at 7:30p I have to be on campus for an event that will last until at least 8 or 9, maybe later.  Then there is an event at the apartment that I think my roomie wants to go to about Weddings on a Budget.  Which should be interesting but still.

Then B is supposed to come down tonight and that means he’ll be hear between 11 and midnight.  Hopefully I’ll have everything done long before then.  I don’t see why not.

Is it bad that now I’m almost afraid of seeing him again?  At this point we’ve reached all the milestones at which point my usual attempts at a relationship have failed.  Not only have we been seeing each other for more than a month, we’ve also had sex.  There’s this little part of me that keeps waiting for the other shoe to drop.  So far I really haven’t seen any weird habit that B has that explains why he’s not off the market yet.  True he’s like me and is into rough sex which can be a deal breaker for some.  And he’s also very into health food (ever had a vegetarian ‘riblet’?  I have) and he’s sworn off things like McDonalds.  But really, that’s not so bad to me.  He’s not overly controlling or  manipulative or possessive.  He’s never shown even a hint of jealousy, although I know I’ve given him glimpses of the fact that I can be a little leery of guys I’m with having female friends I don’t know.  Namely because I’ve had plenty of people screw me over that way, guys and gals alike.  But mostly it’s that I don’t know them so I don’t know how they are or how they act on a normal basis.  But then again, I haven’t really given him a need to be jealous, I don’t talk about my guy friends and they certainly aren’t blowing up my phone nearly as often as these girls blow up his.  And really the only reason I know about any of them is because I said something about how it makes me feel he has something to hide if he makes it a point not to answer his calls or texts when I’m around.  So he started answering them and now it’s almost all girls!  WTH?  But I can’t help that most of my friends and females anyway, at least the ones that insist on messaging or calling all the time are.  I don’t know.  I’m sure I’m making a big deal out of it because he’s never given me a reason to not trust him. 

Oh well.

I’m off to campus here in a few minutes for an event I have to oversee.  Yippee skippy right?  lol

*luv ya bunches*

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April 8, 2008

AWwwwwww…have a wee bit of faith…things maybe awesome! You never know. *cuddles*