Glutton for punishment

No this has nothing to do with real punishment or anything you all may be thinking about.  I did not change my mind about Ven or anyone else for that matter lol.  This refers to my self-induced sickness.  I ate ice cream tonight.  Now I’m sick.  As anyone who knew me could have predicted I would be given that whole lactose intolerance thing.  But I went to the store and this cookies & cream ice cream was just calling my name!!!  I couldn’t resist.  So I had some tonight while watching Dukes of Hazzard and not doing homework lol.  Now I’m paying for it.  And I will continue to pay for it for the next 2 weeks probably as the whole carton basically is still sitting in my freezer and I know the roomie can’t have any.  Being diabetic, it would probably kill her.  It won’t kill me, just make me ill.  Thankfully I can hold out until night and then eat my ice cream and be miserably sick in my own bed.  But god is it worth it at times.  *drools*  Honestly it’s hard to say no to ice cream, even knowing I’ll pay for it in about an hour or so. 

I spent the day trying to study for my Abnormal test on Monday.  I love the material but reading it all is so boring!  All this tedious jargon.  So I get to keep studying for that plus work on my Organic homework.  The homework will come first because that has to be done.  I think some of the Abnormal stuff I’m mostly ok on so long as I study my notes.  Plus the Organic is likely to take more time to get through.  A four page worksheet is a bit much to begin with add in the fact that it’s all organic problems and you begin to see why I say it will be my main goal tomorrow.  :

I watched Queen of the Damned tonight. Haven’t watched that movie in forever but god I love it.  Stuart Townsend is so sexy as a vampire.  He could chomp on me any night of the week!  Yeah baby, grrrr.  LMAO.  I’m slightly crazy tonight.  Isolation has made me wicked.  Both my roomies are out for the weekend which means I’ve been walking around in jeans and a bra because the damned apartment got really hot but the heat isn’t on.  How weird right?  So instead of messing with the therm I popped a window ajar and was walking around half-naked til it cooled down a little.  I wouldn’t have ever done that if I thought someone was going to see me.  I’m terrible about walking around unclothed.  I don’t even like being in a bathing suit in public.  I know, it’s weird but it’s just this thing I have.  I don’t like being naked, I don’t like even being thought of naked.  It upset some of the guys I was with that I’d hop back into my clothes once we were done but it wasn’t personal, I just don’t like being naked.  I don’t even sleep naked unless it’s summer. (My room is that one room in the house that is always the same temperature as the outdoors not the house no matter what the thermostat is set for.)  Even then it’s rare.  I just don’t like being naked and particularly the idea of being naked.  Even in front of my own mom!  Mum is notorious for walking into the bathroom when I’m in the bath/shower and just leaving the door wide open.  Gee thanks mother!  ;p  There is no such thing as privacy in my house.  People are always barging in without knocking.  I mean really.  How hard is it to knock first?  Honestly?  It drives me crazy that I’ll be in the middle of dressing or a shower and she just waltzes in without so much as a by-your-leave and I have to turn around and shriek at her to get out, shut the door, knock, etc.  Haha.  It’s so embarrassing.  What’s worse is she’s done things like that with guests in the house.  I think that’s why I dislike being naked.  I was traumatized growing up in that environment and instead of making me more open to nudity it made me averse to it.  XD  I’m kidding, I don’t have a clue where it comes from.  It’s funny to me and I’m working on overcoming it but it’s tough work.  I’m sure part of the cause is poor self-image.  It’s hard to have a positive self-image when your own family tells you constantly that you need to lose weight.  Makes it hard to be happy with yourself I suppose.  I don’t know.   I think it’s the ice cream talking now.  LOL

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