And it’s all the same
Ven popped back up today. He’s like a freaking mold!! I can’t seem to shake him. I haven’t spoken to him since around Christmas and I was pushing him out of my mind because I’m sick of dealing with his games and as per my NYR I am changing the things in my life that make me unhappy. My relationships with men are turning out to be a good chuck of that category. So I really didn’t talk to him for the last couple of months and then today he texts me saying he’s in the neighboring city from Univeristy-town and he’s overnighting for work, do I want to ‘cum’ and visit…yes, that’s what he said, I kid you not. And yes, I was rolling my eyes at him. I told him I’d have to see. I have since ignored his texts because I have no intention of driving 45 minutes out of my way on a school night to see him when all he wants is sex. He’s already said he wont’ date me because I go to school 2 hours away and that’s where I am most of the year. Ok, I can deal with that. Yet he seems to think that us being friends means he still gets to have sex with me and uh…NO, that isn’t how it works hun, sorry. : ) How dumb is he, honestly? Why do guys seem convinced that once a woman has had sex with them we are putty in their hands? Now I’ll admit I haven’t done much to discourage Ven’s little notion up until now although there has been no sex in oh…a year or so. He still tries, persistent little bugger. All I want to do is go there and tell him just how much he annoys me. However he’d probably try to lead it in a whole other direction and I don’t feel like dealing with that mess anymore. You don’t want to date, fine. But don’t sit there and say you’re my friend, knowing I want to date you, then try and seduce me. That’s just cold!!
*sigh* People amaze me sometimes, just how flat out dumb they can be. I mean honestly. I’ve already told him I will not be FWB. It’s not my style and it doesn’t make me happy. All it does is make me even more aware of that fact that while plenty of guys would love to sleep with me and be best friends, they don’t want to date me. It’s pretty messed up and a number of my guy friends have agreed that it’s a completely stupid idea. And I’ve told them that if they try this with a girl and I find out about it I’ll bury them.
My goals this weekend are to write my Abnormal psych paper (It’s only 2-3 pages so that should be fairly easy to knock out. It’s not due for 2 more weeks but I’d like to get it out of the way since I will most likely be working next weekend). I also have to do some Organic homework. I’ve looked at it, that will be started tomorrow because it will take several attempts to get it right. I need to do research for my Unifying class on Epigenetics and gene therapy, designer children, and designer proteins. The latter has to be done by March 5, the epigenetics has a lot more work involved since I’m presenting on it and it’s due March 26. The FAFSA is due March 1, my parents should find out around next Friday what their taxes will look like so I can go ahead and get that done over that weekend hopefully. Maybe since my mom was out of work for 5 months I will get more aid this coming year. That would be really nice but I doubt it, stupid stingy government. ;p
Still no news in the M area. I have still not heard from him and I am no officially too chicken to make the first move one way or the other. :
Did I mention I tried to start working out again? That was a huge mistake! Roomie and I went to the clubhouse gym and all I did was the cycle, figuring it would be easier on my back and wouldn’t aggravate my nerve damage as much as being on the treadmill or the elliptical. *Buzzer* Wrong-o! I was fine the rest of the day but the next morning I could barely move my leg was killing me! Just sharp pain all day and when I actually had to walk around…ugh, it was awful. And I was back to being in pain going from standing to sitting and vice versa. It’s definitely died down as time has gone on but I think that was my sign. I’m not as healthy yet as I was hoping. It’s killing me not being able to work out!! I mean yeah I can do some weight training and I have some ‘altered’ core work I can do but I can’t do any real cardio!!! AGH!! I hate this! It’s pissing me off that I can’t do the things I actually enjoy. Yes, I do actually enjoy working out, if the environment is ok. Like if you set a cycle or treadmill or something in front of the tv, put in a good movie, I will sit there the entire length of the movie just going full out, no stopping. My body goes into autopilot while I my brain is engaged elsewhere. I’ve always been like that. I can’t exercise when I’m bored because then, well, I’m bored, I want to be somewhere else doing something else. So long as I can be stimulated while I’m exercising I have a great time. Which is why I always hated going to the gym. The tvs were always set to boring shows and they were in subtitle, you couldn’t hear them. You can’t read and work out or at least I can’t, not that I didn’t try that too. Grrrr. Stupid herniated disc, stupid nerve damage!!!
*luv ya bunches*