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I texted with M today.  It started with me I’m afraid lol.  I was joking around and messaged him saying I was mad at him but I put a little smiley face with it so he’d know I was joking.  He messaged back pretty fast saying ok, why?  I told him I had finally gotten this kissing addiction under control when he came along and now I have to deal with it all over again.  He said he was sorry, he didn’t know I had an addiction, was I going to kissing anonymous…it was a cute little conversation.

I was doing it all to tease him and test the waters of course.  A girl’s way to figure out how deep the pool is you could say. 

At one point I told him he was weird but it was ok because I like him anyway.  He replied that he liked me too.  Smart ass me said "No kidding" and he laughed. 

Hopefully things will go as planned and I’ll be able to go home for the 4-day weekend coming up.  It’s kind of funny that we’ll have Mondays off school and I’ll have a fourth day more than most people.  Well since Monday is MLK day we have no classes.  So I will most likely be going home Friday after class, which gets out around noon.  Then I’ll be back at school Tuesday afternoon.  I’m going to call work tomorrow and see if I can pick up some hours since I’ll be home for 4 days.  Hrm…

I’m really looking forward to seeing M, mostly just to see if things will be awkward after Saturday night.  Not that anything actually happened Saturday night but still.  I know he seemed to get really upset that he might have made me mad with his behavior.  It’s cute.  He seems so sweet and innocent sometimes that it worries me.  On the other hand, he’s a comic book collecting geek lol.  So maybe sweet and innocent isn’t an act.  It also turns out that Angel knows M from high school, they graduated together.  Seems he was a band-geek back then.  Haha.  How cute.  Although it certainly seems to explain a lot about how he acts sometimes.  He’s come out of his shell quite a bit I’m sure since then. 

In case you can’t tell I’m really digging on this man.  And why not?  He’s a geek, I’m a bit of a geek (I run an PBEMRPG for cripe’s sake).  He likes wrestling, so do I.  He watches sports, so do I.  He’s a sarcastic smart-ass, so am I.  We get along pretty swimmingly.  He’s good-looking with a good job.  He’s stable and smart and damn near seems perfect.  But I’m approaching this with caution…which Georgie, is why I turned down sex with a HAWT man as you so nicely put it LLC!!  I don’t want to rush into another heartbreak, I don’t want to push anyone or myself to something they aren’t ready for.  While I definitely wanted sex with M I knew that in hindsight I’d end up regretting it.  And M is definitely a guy I don’t want to have any sorrow over.  I want to take things easy since he works so much and I go to school so far away.  He’s already offered to come down and see me but an offer is only an offer and we all know actions speak louder than words.  So I’m waiting for actions.

*Luv ya bunches*