Sex(?)

Where to begin?  There’s no good spot to begin, so let me just discuss randomly.  The other night she came over again.  We spent the evening/night talking, sharing, not talking.  We also found ourselves in each other in a way I never thought possible.  We didn’t have sex in any form but what we did I can’t really put into words.  I can describe it, but…it wouldn’t be the same.  I was left with a feeling of satisfaction far deeper than any I’ve ever gotten from sex.  It was as though I had the most complete and deep orgasm of my entire life, my body and soul were in a state of bliss, a state of non-being that I can’t describe because it doesn’t exist.

It was the most amazing and natural experience of my entire (short) life.

I feel as though there is no other course of action except this one.  That I have no choice in the matter but to follow this course.  It is not a sense of abandon, it is a sense of…non-being. 

It’s as though every event in my life, every thought, every mistake has guided me to this one Event.  That this Time in Space has a level of perfection due to its naturalization. 

All I can say is that I am at peace, I am not left wanting or desiring.  One would assume that such a level of physicality and passion would leave one wanting for more, desiring and needing that Next Step.  With her…I have…bliss, I have found the moment of non-being.

–RK