To mike

Hey Kido. I have thought a bit on what that note said and I am still kind of lost. Maybe it would help if I tried to walk away for a lil bit. I dont know. This would be the type of thing I would talk over with you before makeing any kind of decision. God I miss you lil brother. I feel so lost at times. Amy said maybe I should try ever other day. You know take baby steps. I am going to try baby brother and I hope it will not upset you if I do. I love you lil brother and I will see you wensday morning but I will most likely not write again until Thursday.. OK??

all my love

billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."

the weatherpixie

A friend of mine just lost his dad (three weeks ago) and I found this blog site: http://www.webhealing.com/3col595.html which deals with masculine healing. Men grieve differently than women do. I don’t know if the person who wrote that note telling you to move on is a woman or not (I am) but I DO know that everyone moves at their own pace. (Probably, the person who left that note has never lost anyone. Grieving takes a LONG time.) The site (above) also has a couple of books about men and healing. I bought both for my friend. You might find them useful. I just randomed in — saw you on the front page. My heart goes out to you — and please do whatever you feel that you need to do to honor your grieving process. It has not even been three months. You do not “get over” a lifetime with someone in three months. Be gentle with yourself.

TimeKnowsNot

February 21, 2009

i love reading these letters, they are so raw,and real, and they remind me to be so thankful for who i have in my life who i love, who in a blink of an eye could be gone. You are helping yourself cope on here, but when not on here have you lived any out there. Just baby steps. This is a bautiful dedication to him, but I feel certain your loving little brother, would not want you to blame yourself

TimeKnowsNot

February 21, 2009

whatever you decide, we are here to listen, let you feel your pain, let you be angry and rageful if needed. You have a loving family waiting to get their child/husband back. And you have people on here who are willing to always listen, and if you ever need to talk….notes go both ways.

DragonKat

February 23, 2009

I hope and pray every day that your pain will lessen. ((hugs)) ♥

DragonKat

February 28, 2009

RYN: Thanks for that link, I’ll be checking it out. I know what you mean about how easy it is to download books. I haven’t even had the thing 24 hours and I’ve already got seven on it. ♥

i miss the letters