To Mike

Hey lil brother. Well its been 10 weeks since you left us and man its no fun 🙁 I keep thinking that this damn thing is just one big night mare and I am wishing that will be wakeing up soon. Well amy and I are home now. Tired like a mug thou. Sleeping in the same bed with mikey is like swimming with rocks tied to my legs 🙂 We layed there and talked to like 3 am and jess must have come in and yelled at us 100 to get to sleep. She dont scare me so we kept going…lol…Then I wake up this morning with a head butt. You know how he moves all over the place. He must have woke me up a half dozen times last night, but that last one was enough and I gave up.. Ahhh shit lil brother when does it get any easier. I would give anything to make this shit end. To make everything go back to the way it was. Finally got Amy a new battiery for her car. I kept thinking about how you needed one but I did not offer to get it for you.. I swear brother I did not because I knew you did not like me giving you cash. I swear lil brother I was not being cheap i just did not want to hurt your feelings. Oh god mike I have so many regrets now. I just sat there and watched mikey sleep preying that someday he can forgive me for not helping his father more… I am so sorry lil brother I hope someday you can forgive me… Dream a good dream for us brother.

all my love

billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."