To Mike

Hey Kido,
          I am so sorry about this morning. I just lost it. I guess it was because I was so tired and so cold and  missing you so much I just lost it. lol I had all this snot frozen in my mustash(sp?). I am just a lil bitch I swear :).. I thought I was going to freeze to death standing there. Usually I call amy to get someone to  tell me its ok to leave. Because I find it so hard to leave  you there. I mean part of me is ripping apart inside standing over you like that but I just cannt seem to leave you. Then I will call amy and ask her if its ok to leave, but today I knew she was home asleep sick.. She knew this thou and set her alarm to wake up and call me to tell me it was ok to leave. I still hate leaving you thou bro. Oh god its so hard. I just dont have the words..

Ummm I got some good news today. You know all that cash I lost on stocks?? It looks like I am getting most of it back with my tax returns..I thought that was really nice. Mom and dad are getting back a nice lil chunk too.. The doc gave amy the rest of the week off so she can heal up.. I think that about covers everything since we talked this morning.. I miss you brother and I really dont know how I am supposed to keep going without you but I am trying kido I am trying… Dream a good dream for us brother..

All my love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."