To Mike

hey Man,
         I am tired tonight. Did not get alot of sleep. I think its because now I really hate fridays and sundays. It has been 8 weeks since we put you in the ground and its just as fresh to me now as it was then. Big problem with haveing a great memory like me is that when you want to forget things it just tends to come back to you more often.. I keep seeing you there in that damn box like it was yesterday. I keep hearing the phone call with the cop. I keep hearing the phone call with dad. Want some advice? Never be the one to tell a parent that their child is dead. The pain you will hear will be the purest experance in your life. I heard him tell mom and her reaction over the phone. Oh god mike if I could have destroyed my abilty to hear at the moment I would have. And now I can not get it out of my head. I used to love just letting my mind go. Letting it jump from subject to subject. Just thinking for the pure joy of the process. Now thou that is  over man. I cannt let it go because it jumps to these things over and over like a damn broken record.

Mikey is doing alot better tonight. He wanted to come over and watch Sweeny Todd with amy. Its a musical about muder and makeing meat pies out of the bodies. Ya man you 8yr old son is a freack :P… Im sitting here waiting for a trama to come in. It said it was as trama minor.  A 16 yr old with a gun shot wound to the back of his knee. I dont know I never trust the trama call. Sometimes these so called minor tramas take the most product. BSG is on tonight. I will watch it tomorrow and let you know what happens. The promos show Gata leading a munity against the Admiral. I did not think he had it in him myself.. I miss talking to you brother. I never thought I needed a friend until I lost my best friend.. Dream a good dream for us..

all my love

Billy

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