To Mike

Hello brother, 
                Well we got about 6 or so inchs of snow and sleet. Everyone stayed home today. Yup that includes dad too. He was able to get the car up the hill but then said fuck it the streets are just to bad to risk it. I dreamed about you last again. I dont recall alot of it but I do recall that it was a godd one. It had all been a mistake and you where alive. You had been in a coma or something in the hospital and finally woke up and called us letting us know you where ok. Oh fuck dude I would give anything for that to be tree includeing my own life. I was so happy. I miss you so much Mike. I just walk around in this funk all the damn time. Every time I look in the mirror I dont see who I thought I  was me. My eyes just seem to be going deeper and deeper into my face. They are just these black sockets looking back at me. Damn dude I am getting skeletor eyes. Tell me what to do brother. I feel so lost so out of balance. Sometimes its so hard just to care enough to take the next breath. It was never supposed to be you brother. You where supposed to be there with me until the end. I keep hearing that Door’s song in my head "The End."

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end

Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end
Ill never look into your eyes…again

Can you picture what will be
So limitless and free
Desperately in need…of some…strangers hand
In a…desperate land

Lost in a roman…wilderness of pain
And all the children are insane
All the children are insane
Waiting for the summer rain, yeah

Theres danger on the edge of town
Ride the kings highway, baby
Weird scenes inside the gold mine
Ride the highway west, baby

Ride the snake, ride the snake
To the lake, the ancient lake, baby
The snake is long, seven miles
Ride the snake…hes old, and his skin is cold

The west is the best
The west is the best
Get here, and well do the rest

The blue bus is callin us
The blue bus is callin us
Driver, where you taken us

The killer awoke before dawn, he put his boots on
He took a face from the ancient gallery
And he walked on down the hall
He went into the room where his sister lived, and…then he
Paid a visit to his brother, and then he
He walked on down the hall, and
And he came to a door…and he looked inside
Father, yes son, I want to kill you
Mother…i want to…fuck you

Cmon baby, take a chance with us
Cmon baby, take a chance with us
Cmon baby, take a chance with us
And meet me at the back of the blue bus
Doin a blue rock
On a blue bus
Doin a blue rock
Cmon, yeah

Kill, kill, kill, kill, kill, kill

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end

It hurts to set you free
But youll never follow me
The end of laughter and soft lies
The end of nights we tried to die

This is the end

Do you see why?. Oh god brother its so hard so very hard. I love you man.. Dream a good dream for me please..

All my love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."