To Mike

Hey Gee,
               Big Bang is on tonight and it looks really funny. Oh hey dont forget the last 10 episodes of Battle Star Galactica starts this friday too. I stoped watching the websodes. I dont know why they just really started to bore the hell out of me and well they where not that great. For the new year I get to start doing my cont. education on line. They posted a bunch of lectures the AABB, a group that deals with us blood bankers, gave. The first one is why we do what we do. I assume its about all the testing we do and what can go wrong with them.

Dad went to see that dr. today and he said it might have helped him a bit, and thats good. He said she wants him to start takeing some anti-depresents. I told him that was a good ideal and should do it and go back again. If nothen else it gives him a chance to get stuff of his chest and not worry about bringing anyone else down with him. I find myself always worrying about makeing others lose it when I do you know. Oh hey you have a star named after you now. Jess Amy and mom got it all set up and they are giving it to mikey so he can look up and talk to you when he finds your star. Its in the DRACO constlation. Dragons are always cool huh??

Ah fuck man I miss you so much. I fucking hate this pain. I just dont care about anything anymore. All I do is see things and think how I would have loved to talk to you about it. Battlestar in a few days, Underworld 3 in a week just fucking everything man why the fuck did you leave me why the fuck man FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKF jklfehjwewerewetnklnklgwrnkll…………..   Im sry brother I just have so much anger and pain inside. I just want to scream and rampage and Well rember the old Hulk comics "HULK SMASH!!!" thats the way I feel man just like a fucking bomb ready to take out everything around me. Rest brother and dream a good dream for us living this nightmare…

All my love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."