To Mike

Hey lil brother,
                        The holidays are finally over. It will not help the pain go away but it sure as hell will not hurt. Ah fuck I am tire right now. Being at work sucks. I used to love it when you called me around 3 am just to BS about stuff but you stopped doing that toward the end with all the meds and shit you where on. It was ok I did not mind. Oh happy new year by the way. Everyone was at Rich and Sues and had the anual poker game. Can you believe Amy actually walked away ahead this year..lol.. I was not there of course I had to work this year. I told you all about that yesterday. Bunch of junk going on around here.

Syfyportal.com posted the spoiler "This is how BSG ends." I did not read it. I personally do not want to know. I want to ride it out and let it hit me between the eyes or have me figure it out for myself. Im looking at a box of plts that I need to bring in but I just dont have the umph to get off my ass and get to work. So enstead I wanted to sit down and drop you a line and tell you I love you. Dad is still takeing your lost hard. So is mom but she is keeping it alot more private, playing her cards close to her chest as they say. Mikey is like a ball of fire until he hits a wall and then he slumps for a bit but then back up again running. Jess is trying to keep it together but I think she loses it when ever noone is around to see her. Amy is useing the job of keeping care of me to keep herself in check. Me I swing from numb to guilt/pain over and over again. We miss you brother.

Dream a good dream for us kido because we sure as hell are liveing in a nightmare without you..

All my love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."