To Mike

Hey lil brother,
                         I just got off the phone with Mikey and man he is a mini-you :P. I got the run down on Mortal Combat Vs DC…lol… Sounds like a fun game actually. I played a lil bit with him when I was staying at your place and it was ok but you know me I am not a big video nut like you and him are. Ahh man its only 2 hours away from 2009. Happy New Year eve by the way. Man I really dont want 2008 to end. Stupid I know but you where a part of 2008 and I know you will not be here in 2009. I miss you so much lil brother. I wake up and think of you and when I go to bed its thinking of you. Everyone keeps saying it will take time but dude I am so tired of hurting I dont know if time is the answer.

My li weather mini has fire works going off how quite 😛  Man we have 4 fracking Ecmos here. They need to fix these damn kids and send them home!!! I dont want to work 🙂 Gina my fellow midnighter donated 50 bucks towards mikeys colledge fund. Lets see thats 160 from my work. Not great I know and Im sorry but hey its something right?? I feel like Im saying sorry to you all the time. I feel so much guilt like I failed you on so many levels lil brothers. I will always hate myself for going to bed early Thanksgiving night. Those two hours dont mean a thing unless you dont have them you know..

Not a whole lot happening in the world. At least nothen different from before. People are still killing each other. People are still stealing from each other.. People just plain suck lil brother 🙂 I just wish tomorrow will get here so I can leave tomorrow behind. I feel like a prisonor some times just doing my time. Stay safe lil brother and dream a good dream for us..

All My Love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."

 

the weatherpixie

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January 1, 2009

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January 1, 2009

I’m so sorry to hear about your brother. My sister died in 04 and I still miss her everyday, its hard and there is a little empty space still aching. But the pain you feel will get better – I’m sure youve heard it all before, but it true – She would kick my arse if i wasted a moment moping. I keep enjoying my life and laughing cos I know thats all she ever wanted for me. & good memories! fd xx

January 1, 2009

this is the 2nd time I clicked random and came upon your diary. Your entries are so heartfelt, I know your little brother is looking after you. I haven’t experienced loss like you have, but my heart goes out to you.