To Mike

Hey Gee Money, 
                           Im watching Ramsay slaughter his turkeys. Its not pretty but they way they do it, electric slaughter, its looks basically painless.They use 600 volts. Damn that would be hard to raise animals from babies and then slaughter them for dinner. I mean if your not a farmer to start with. He just keeps saying thank god the kids are not here. No shit right?? Day is not over yet and it was a hard one. Dad called because Mom broke down at work and had to leave early. Dad pretty much broke down on the phone with me. There is so muc pain here brother. I wish it was me and not you. Death is easy its the living that we eare finding to be so hard.

The Rams lost their last game of the season. No shock I know 🙂 dad said they get the number two pick this year. Oh you rember that red budda that mom had. I found a lil bitty one at the mall yesterday and bought it for mom. She is keeping it in her car for luck I guess. Amy and I are going to start putting 100 dollars a month into Mikeys school fund. Dont worry about him bro I will make sure he gets thru colledge not matter what it takes. Even if it kills him 🙂 A Doc at your work wrote a check for 200 for mikey and I got another 40 from a girl at my work. So no worrys there kido we got him taking care of.

I can type I miss you a million times and it will not come close to how much I do lil brother. Even thou i have finally gotten some sleep im still so tired. Damn it mike why did you have to go. The future seems so fucking black with out you. These damn letters dont come close to just talking with you for  a minute or two. I would give anything to just hug you one more time, I am so sorry I went to bed early thanksgiving night. I hate myself so much for not staying up with you. Just to have had that much more time together would have meant so much. I told amy I felt like I stole from you when mom gave me what was left of your kool-aid. How fucked up is that huh??? I love  you brother rest well..

All My Love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."