To Mike

Hey lil brother, I got to drive into work tonight in thunderstorms and freezing rain. FUN FUN FUN 😛 Mom and Jess got around to putting the heat tape on your water pipes. They have water again. Were was dad you ask?? He was at Pattersons getting stichs in his thumb because he cut himself trying to get that tape on…lol.. Only two so hes ok.. Not a whole lot happening in TV land. Everything is taking its winter breack and wont be back on until Feb. Amy and I watched Ziggy’s Christmas. She is trying to brighting me up I think but I just dont have it in me. I spent an hour this morning just crying in bed missing you.

Mike you know how much I love you right??? You know I never thought of you as  a leach or of you as taking advantage of me right??? Its so hard not having you here kido. I guess we are having christmas over at Rich and Sues this year but I just dont care. I hate seeing those damn christmas decerations I was putting up that morning.  I just feel so guilty all the time knowing your dead and I am still alive. I have never felt so young. Knowing I have all these years in front of me without you!!! John my co-worker goes "you know christmas is going to suck for you right." I got a lil pissed off and told him I did not need him to tell me that. Trust me I already know it!

I did some research on that morning you died. You where not the only car crash hell you where one of two fatal car crashes that morning. I dont know why I just wanted to see what was happening that morning I guess. Your story was in both the Jefferson county journal and the bloomsdale Sun Set newspaper. Again I dont know why I looked I just did. I guess im trying to understand or just keep busy I guess. Well thats it for me tonight. I have to defraust 5 liters of plasma for a 300 pound kid. I say if you can split the kid and get two nice size adults send them to the damn adult hospital across the street 😛

all my love

Bill

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."