To Mike

Hey bro, Ice yesterday and now snow today. Amy said it was a lil harry getting to work but she made it ok. Mom should have no problems all the snow is north of arnold. Im sitting here watching Sarah Connor. I dont know kid it seems like I am not getting out of this what i used too. My books my sci fi sites my anything all seem to be just wasting time enstead of finding joy from it. I dont know maybe more time needs to past before I can find joy again but right now it just does not seem possible.

You knew how much I loved you right?? Above all others brother above all others. Oh hey in Sarah Connor it turns out Johns lil girl friend is from the future also. I swear there is more future people then past people in the present 😛 I keep seeing christmas stuff like cartoons and lights and I just dont care about it. I keep thinking how I was putting up christmas stuff in my house while you where laying dead on the side of the road. Oh god mike I am so sorry. I keep thinking things would be so much better for everyone but amy of course that it was me and not you. I have more life insurance I am not leaveing a son behind everyone would not have to worry about Jess finding someone else and leaveing with mikey. If there was a way to trade I would do it brother with no second thoughts I would crawl into that box and let you step out. I miss you brother I miss talking to you I miss just haveing you around I miss going to bed without having to have amy hold me while i cry my pain out. I am just blabbing now.

Have you found peace mike? Are all of your worries now laid to rest with you? No more pain no more worries no more ceasures. Before I thought of the future, I made plans for when I retire but now I just dont care now I just wonder what will happen once I pass over to see you again, I miss you brother sleep well and wait for me.

All my love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."