To Mike

Hey Kido. It has been a week since we put you into the ground and it has not gotten any easier without you. I no longer fall over crying every 5 mins. but I do feel an ach in my chest that will just not go away. I read some of your rp buddies salute you last night. I dont know kid maybe Im heartless but I just cannt bring myself to care about those other people. After seeing the pain of the family its hard for me to see where they can come even close to hurting as much as us. Part of me would love to role over and join you but I just cannt leave the others behind just yet.

Amy and I are going to spend the weekend at your place. Mom will be alone and I just dont want that. So I may not be able to write you but I will try. I hope you like that christmas tree we left you last night. I know its not much but its cure anyway :)…. I talked to Jess about that will. If her work cannt help her I will talk to that lady at my work whose hubby is a lawer and see what he can do for us. Mikey is hurting alot with out you man. That kid loves you ALOT and misses you ALOT… I will do what I can for him but hes going to need alot of time and TLC..

Damn man I miss you. It seems like every day that goes by I have to stop myself from calling you to talk. Every time I talk to Jess I have to force myself not to say "Hey is my bro around??" I can safely say death no longer scares me knowing that what even happens afterward you are there waiting for me.  I love you mike rest well brother,

All my love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."