To Mike

Hey Gee you have been gone 6 days and we laid you to rest just 24 hrs ago. I miss you alot kido. I keep going over what I could have done. I wish I had stayed up longer with you on thanksgiving. I wish I had laid done in bed with you when I found you asleep when I stoped by on Saterday. I wish the last thing we talked about was not Batman..lol

I plan to come up on wensday after work to visit you. You rember how we both thought that was so stupid visiting graves??? But now I dont know kid its like the closest thing to you I have so I dont know I just want to stop and talk awhile. If I get to bugging you or you want me to stop by more often I will play it how ever you want. Dad wanted me to tell you that Maddox is retireing and the Cards traded two players to get some shortstop from the Padres. You always new more about that stuff so I figure you will know who im talking about. Oh O.J got 33 years but should be up for parole in 9.

Everyone is missing you. God you would be so proud of Mikey he is trying to be so strong for everyone, but hes hurting too. LOL last night he told me since I was older then you I should have died first. Therefore I will be seeing you sooner then him and therefore should be happy about that. LIl shit. He went off on some other lil cousin of his when he said Jess was crying alot. Hes a good kid.

You would not have believed the showing. Wally showed up, I would have not been more surprised if you poped out of that box then seeing him show up. Eric, Mike Novey and Sean Roper showed up.. God it has not been since highschool that we saw those guys. I amit I felt guilty laughing with them. I did not leave your side the whole time thou bro. I was the first thru the doors and they had to force me to leave so I was the last. I think I broke my hand thou punching the wall. I dont rember doing it but Mikey was afraid I may have hurt the wall 🙂

Money wise it looks like things will be ok. Jess is getting about 90g in life and another 1500 a month in Soc. SO everything there will be fine so no need to worry for them. I coverd the furneral. I hope it was good enough for you kido. I know you always said paying alot was stupid but i just wanted to do right by you. We are going to try and trade in your old Kia to get a new car for jess. If we can get more junker her then we will but I told Jess it was up to her.

I was going to watch Star Wars with mikey last night but we missed it because we had to leave Rich and Sues. I am kind of glad I think it would have ripped me up with out you there to talk about it. Everyone is afraid I will do something to myself. I wont so dont worry. I made you that promise and I will keep it, but damnit man I am going to hurt for the rest of my life with out you. I guess I could live up to 40 or 50 more years if Im lucky and I just dont know how im going to do that without you kido. It was never supposed to be you. Well that is it for now I will write more later.

All my love to you.

Bill

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."