R.I.P Lil Brother

On Nov. 30th 2008 at 7:34am while driving southbound on highway 55 my brother hit a patch of ice and ran off the road. He over turned or something and fliped his truck. He was ejected from the truck and suffered a major head injury. He died instantly. He was 30yrs 10 months and 21 days old. He leaves behind a wife and a 8 yr old son. He left that morning to buy fruitloops for his child.

He was my lil brother. I walked this earth alone for 1yr 4 months and 6 days before he came into the world and I am now alone again. His passing has hurt me more then anything before that has happened to me. He was not just my brother. He was my confessor he was my best friend he was my securty he was the one person on this earth I trusted 100%.

I dont know how I will go on without him. The only thing keeping me alive is the love for my family that is still here. And the promise that I swore over my brothers body that I will protect and take care of his son. But by the gods I would trade with him in a sec. I would give anything to hold him for but a minute and tell him once again that I love him.

Its killing me knowing he is cold in the ground and I am warm. I feel guilty doing anything I know he is now unable to do. I have to force my self to eat I have to force myself to sleep I have to force myself to live. It was not supposed to be this way. He was the alpha to my omega. He was truely my other half.

Rest now lil brother and know I that I will protect that which you have left behind. Dream a good dream for one day I will join you and once again we can travel the same path. For there is no justice in this universe if I can never be with you again.

All my love to you.

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."