life.

I hardly have time to write in this thing anymore, makes me sad.

I hardly have time to spend with my kids anymore that breaks my heart.

This is my life.

Monday/Tuesday aren’t so bad i work 8 – 4 at RRC every other Tuesday i’m off at 3:15 so we are all home by 4:30/4:45…

Wed/Thurs and Fri i work till 4 – 4:45 (yesterday i worked till 4:45 not happy) and I wasn’t home until 5:10 and i didn’t even pick up my kids, i called my Dad and he did it…

Karalena goes to bed at 6pm… sometimes i can get that little girl to stay up until 6:30.. by the time i’m done eating or we are all done eating its 5:30 almost 6 which gives me time to bath her and then pretty much bed.. sometimes we get to play but only for like 15 mins….

Liam goes to bed at 7/7:30 so i get 30 – an hour with him every day.. which is good but its still not enough.

 

I had the day from h – e double hockey sticks at AB (Artic Buying). I had to do so much shopping took me like 3 hours, i pissed some stuff, i needed to 8 packs of something and only bought 2, i had to go to 3 different stores, i forgot to go to le chateau and buy a tie for some kid… ugh!!!! i left with the debit cards and whole sale cards… i almost got into a huge accident. I had to pick up bubble wrap and the supplier didn’t cut it into four pieces and i didn’t know that they do that so someone else had to go back and return it.. it wasn’t my fault but still not seeing the quantities was my fault. oh yea cliff asked me to pick up 2 bags of tositos and pumpernickel bread i picked up 2 bags of doritos and pumpernickel bread.. i got 1 bread but i needed two….

ugh!

Today is going to be better!

I went to bed at 8:30 last night… what has happened to me?

I can’t believe this is going to be my life for ever..

I hear i think her name is Octavia Davis (or its the other one from that movie…) anyway she prayed every day for a man, who was divorced with kids and in three weeks she met him and they got married..

I want to pay for a mon- friday 8am – 2pm job that pays $35 an hour… think it will happen?

8 – 2 would be so great.. i could still spend so much time with my kids, and still bring in an income and suppprt them if i could get 35 an hour… i just see this being so unrealistic…

i miss mat leave! lol i know this is worth it, and i know this is what i have to do and need to do to provide for my family. This is the hand i was dealt and i’m okay with that its just hard right now i know i’ll get to used to it… its just hard.

I had to buy 4 bags of dog food and i carried two of them (13kg bag) from the store to the van (2 at a time) and my back hurts…  

oh yea another short story to add to my day of heck lol .

I needed to buy 6 bags of flour… i picked up a bag of flour at the store and there was a hole in it.. did i see the hole? nope… i was wearing black.. flour all over me.. it was a huge massive hole i can’t believe i missed it. (it was on the side so it was pretty easy not to see and there were bags of flour beside it)

UGH!

but today is going to be a great day… why? because i said so, i waved a magic wand, prayed to God and its going to happen.

Done!

 

Tomorrow i run my 5k i’m nervous and going to die. Mike and memory are watching the kids ugh i wish i would of said no but this way its their once a month visit…  its suppposed to be 35 tomorrow. who runs 5k in the mud? when its that hot out? i can’t even run 5k i can run 2k in 14mins.. thats not that fast i know.. but thats my speed.

anyway i’m off

chelsea