thinking…

I had my interview yesterday, its weird I never had an interview when I was first hired, but I did this time. 3 people interviewed, my current boss, and 2 other people. I think it went ok, I was super nervous and i’m pretty pregnant so I really wonder if this put a huge damper on my chances….

 I can’t stop thinking about if I got the job or not, and If I can quit my horrible job with 24/7… working 1:30 – 10pm is the WORST shit ever lol, and I feel like I do nothing but eat, sleep, and work. I want this position so bad, I keep praying for it, and praying for it, and asking for God to just take control of my life and situation. I know I need to just relax, and focus, but I can’t, I just want these hours… I want nursing… i loved nursing! Meagen my supervisor hated nursing and gave me most of the shifts because she didn’t want to deal with it…. Now with our new boss Chris and HR changing everything it can’t just be like that, and we all have to re aply for our positions, or to get extra hours, doing the exact same thing we are doing now. oh uninions… how they are so great and so ugh at the same time.

I have to leave for work right away…. I don’t want to go lol, but I must.

I drove out to the cabin yesterday after my interview, and I spent the day at the beach with my momma. We went swimming, then sat in the shallow end which was wonderful! it was so hot out it was just nice to be in the lake. We tanned for awhile, then we went up town to do some shopping. She bought Shaun and I more plates, mugs, this cute little jam thingy, we tried to look for more baby stuff, but there was nothing there that I really wanted or liked. She said she’d buy our son a snow suit since we are going to really need that this winter.

Though I wonder how he’ll feel being all bundled up in a snow suit to be outside for like 30 seconds and then into a warm car for Lord knows how long that drive will be…. do babies really need to be in their snow suit in the car? do they get uncomfertable? do i take off the snow suit and then put it back on before It ake them out of the car… where do you find this out??? am I horrible for not already knowing this???

I watch pregnant in heels a lot.. sometimes I feel like a horrible mother because i’ve failed the mommy test….. I didn’t know why you swaddled a baby, now i know its because it makes them feel like they are back in your womb…. am i terrible for not knowing htaT? I knew how to swaddle just didn’t know why….

oh being pregnant is crazy…

by the way I dyed my hair ….. its red and i htink it looks pretty good! i’ll post pics just as soon as Shaun takes a pic of me lol.. i keep promising pics…. oh it will happen.

later days.

chelsea.