useless.

I have been feeling pretty useless latley… i’m pregnant and we just moved so i was pretty useless, not only that lexie and her man broke up, praise the lord!! so she just moved back into her place and once again i was useless i just felt like i was in the way.. i probably was… Then I applied online for a line of credit which didn’t work b/c i screwed up and Shaun was a little upset with me, and said it wasn’t a big deal.. but then saif when it comes to those things he will just have to do it.. which once again made me feel useless… like i had no common sense… great…

 I know cause i’m pregnant my emotions are running crazy, but i just am sad…. I’ve been feeling really fat latley too but not in my tummy, in my legs, arms ect… i started working out again, i had to take some time off with the move… i am feeling less attractive, and its awful… I just don’t feel like i’m good enough Shaun… like hes settling b/c he knocked me up and he could do so much better. I know i’m being over sensative, and ridiculous, but my self esteem just isn’t here today…

To make matters worse, i just threw myself at Shaun and got rejected.. he said its time to sleep.. so feeling pretty didn’t really work there…

i know its just a bad day, hopefully i’ll snap out of it… hopefully.. i just needed to vent.