it’s just all turned to hate

he keeps saying I am overly demanding, because I want him to stop hanging up on me without saying good bye. My blood pressure won’t go down I’m at t-minus 41 days and the birth control is making me a cranky angel

He sits 10 feet away from me, chatting with some girl. We spent my birthday discussing how he needs to cheat, and he asks for my permission in a way that I can’t say no. He gets to cheat and I get to go to new york, I guess its a fair trade off.

we’ve been together four years, do you expect me to have passion for you still?

But I want passion even after four years, I want love not indiffence he sends me birthday flowers because I made him, and the card said how he can’t think of anything sweet to say, no I love yous.. and he signed it “pricky” he didn’t even wish me a happy birthday till I asked him to.

Hey,
I’ll take this day by day by day
Under the covers I’m okay I guess
Life’s too short and I feel small

So today he tells me how he has plans to visit this new girl, and how he is planing on sleeping with her Now I’m lying on the table with everything you said keeping in mind the way that it felt when the most I could do was to just blame myself so I call the ex I need someone to tell me I’m not flawed..In the parking lot at work he tells me that this isn’t my fault..I tell him I need someone to love me right now..

so he says i.love.you

crazy new york boy in love with me =P

On this coldest of January nights
We drive out past the runway and watch the planes go flying by
The runway lights are the deepest blue like the colors of your eyes
So close them tight and kiss me one last time

If you could go anywhere right now
Where would you go?
And would you miss me when you get there?
No place that I would rather be
Please don’t let me go falling from the sky
This “fasten seatbelt” sign just needs to go out
If only you could be right here by my side
Home wouldn’t seem so far from here

funny how when one part of my life shatters someone always find the broken parts.

I don’t know what to do, or what to feel..I’m just suffering.

*Angel*

P.S I can’t leave notes!! This damn thing keeps signing me out when I try don’t hate me guys I’m still reading thank you for all the birthday wishes cheered me up 🙂

Can you see what you’ve done to my heart
And soul?