The last few months

It has been way too long since I sat down to write an entry for my OD and I have no excuse other than to say that it is something that happens to me. My time on this site comes in waves…and right now seems to be a low point in my OD relationship.

A number of things have happened over the past months. I will try to remember them all and give a brief breakdown in writing here…if not for your reading pleasure, then for posterity.

A few months ago, I was contacted by my ex-wife. She apparently had a dilemma concerning my oldest son. It seems that he was going to join the Job Corps to finish his schooling and get some training in a job that would benefit him in the future. He had been approved for some serious financial support to go with this and everything was a go and my ex-wife dropped him off at the Job Corps campus.

He was back at home by that evening.

Being the typical teenage kid and thinking that he is the master of his own destiny, he decided that he didn’t want the restrictions of the Job Corps campus life and told the orientation counselor that he “heard voices telling him what to do.” Unfortunately for him and his Job Corps future, that put him severely into the category of “schizophrenic” in their eyes and he was removed from the premises and told not to return.

I received a call that evening asking if he could move in with me and, after consulting with my wife, we determined that it just wasn’t feasible to allow a potentially violent child with hatred toward me and destructive tendencies to come here and disrupt our happy home. Needless to say, I had to turn my back on my own child for that reason and the fact that he is apparently wanted for questioning concerning some thefts around the area in which his mother lives. It would be aiding and abetting a criminal to allow him to move here.

I told my ex-wife that she should go ahead and turn him in to the police because it would teach him a valuable lesson. However, since I haven’t had any contact with her or the rest of the boys since, I do not know if she followed my advice or if she is continuing the path she decided upon when she told the police that he did not live there. Unfortunately, I cannot condone illegal activity.

Because of the aforementioned issue, my anxiety came back with a vengeance. So much so that I spoke with my doctor about a prescription and a consult to a psychiatric doctor that could also prescribe medicines if needed. He gave me a prescription for Ativan and Prozac to keep the shakes that I was experiencing at bay.

So, I have become a member of the Prozac generation. It is unfortunate that I need this medicine but it seems to be helping.

Gina and I are both now fully into the iPhone thing that has happened. We both have an 8GB iPhone 3G (no, not the 3Gs) and both love the device. I am amazed at what it can accomplish and it has become a tool that I have come to depend on.

However, have noticed that my penchant for listening to music has gone the way of the dodo and, while I have 30 or more gigabytes worth of mp3s available to me, I keep no music on my iPhone at all. Instead, I have searched out NPR podcasts that interest me and audio books that I have wanted to listen to. Music has lost it’s appeal for me as I’ve gotten older. Even the stuff I grew up on.

The apps are amazing though. Banking, weather, grocery lists, Netflix, Facebook, and geocaching are just some of what I have on my iPhone and that is just a small amount of the apps I have downloaded and played with on my iPhone. There are so many things that this device can do and I am pleased with it every day. Gina is still very new to the iPhone experience though but still finds more and more to like about hers every day that she has it.

One of the reasons I got the iPhone for myself is that it was going to help with my new job. That’s right, I finally got a job. My job consists of covering an area near my home and repairing Dell computers that are under warranty. I am actually working for a company based out of Massachusetts that is contracted to Dell.

Unfortunately, it hasn’t turned out the way I expected. I was expecting, from the conversation I had with the interviewer, anywhere from 20 to 30 calls per week but it has been significantly less than that. My best week so far has been 15 calls in a week and that was some time ago. I can only hope that business picks up after the first of the year but I am still in search of a job that will be a little more lucrative for me.

The holidays are upon us and the shopping is fully done (thank goodness) except for some food shopping that will be required in the next few days. We are looking forward to spending time with Meagan and the grandkids and then the end of the season and the beginning of the New Year.

I plan on driving to see my grandmother and aunt the morning of the 26th while Gina stays home with the kids and entertains them. I’m not sure if I will spend the night or not yet though I am considering it. I don’t know yet.

Till Next Time,
Blessed Be!