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This is going to be a difficult entry to write. I’m not quite sure how to go about it but I’m going to have to give it a try.

I’ve talked now, extensively, to my youngest son. His name is Jason and he seems to be very comfortable with the fact that I’m going to be part of his life. He continues to tell me “I love you” at the end of all of our phone calls but calls me Kyle still. That is understandable, in my opinion. I’ve made the offer to have him come out on the road with my over the summer when he’s not in school and he’s very much for the idea. He even wants to “pimp” my truck out. *rolling eyes* lol

Unfortunately, beyond the first time I talked to my middle son, Jeff, I haven’t talked to him again since. There have been issues at my ex’s home since my conversation and, despite what she wants, he left and moved in with his step-father. He’s 14 years old.

I haven’t talked to my oldest, Jon, at all. He refuses to have anything to do with my ex at all and has lived with his step-father for a good 2 months now. He’s extremely angry at my ex for kicking out her husband and beginning to date someone new. He’s becoming a thug. He actually threatened to kill my ex the other night.

Part of the reason why this is happening is that their step-father, Mark, is a certifiable nut case. He is convinced that he is to start up a ministry in which he can pick and choose verses from the bible and subvert those verses to his own use. Jeff has even been to counseling at his church and been told, by the pastor at that church, that if he has any dealings with his mother, he’s going to hell and there’s no stopping it. I heard that and I was livid! Fortunately, that pastor is very lucky I couldn’t go to his church at that moment. And some people wonder why I don’t have anything to do with the christian churches anymore.

I know, I know, they are not all like that. But it’s those extreme ones that ruin the fabric of christianity for the rest of you.

To that end, I told my ex that it’s time to contact the police and have each of the boys turned in as a runaway. Unfortunately, since she is still married to the guy, the police can’t do anything to make the situation go away. They actually could force both of the boys to go back home, but they can’t force them to remain and they can’t stay there 24 hours a day to ensure they don’t destroy the place out of sheer hatred and meanness.

I’m still hoping to get through the Dallas area as soon as I can and, maybe, convince them that I’m not there to rule their lives but to be there for them when they need me. However, I have the distinct impression that I may be attacked, both physically and verbally, and I cannot allow that.

I had a pretty rough dream last night that Jon tried attacking me and I picked him up and threw him out the door. Then I looked at Jeff and make your choice. Needless to say, I woke up shaking as this is NOT something I want to do to my children. But, in some strange parallel to reality, I would defend myself in such a way that my two oldest children would understand that I mean business.

I know that everyone is going to offer advice as to what to do concerning all this. I appreciate that, in advance, but there’s only so much I can do from where I am. I don’t live in the Dallas area, I’m not moving to the Dallas area, and I am hardly at home as it is so I can’t dump two extremely belligerent teenagers onto Dixie and then head back on the road like nothing is wrong. I’d come home to a destroyed house and divorce papers waiting to be signed…maybe. That’s may be taking it a little extreme.

So, I’m in a holding pattern when it comes to my oldest boys but, so far, it seems I’m in like Flynn with Jason. My ex has told me that he’s walking around telling everyone that I’m going to be there soon and he wants to call me on a continuous basis. He asks me all kinds of questions which I am answering truthfully. And that’s the way it should be. I am going to continue to be as truthful as I can possibly be with him because it’ll help me more than I’ll know.

And, now you know, the rest of the story.

Till Next Time
Blessings!

Kyle
Riverwolf
The Trucking Geek