lonely
i feel so alone
i dnt kno what to do
ppl check on me, ask me if im ok, its sweet, but all i can say is yes
i cant tell them the truth
that no, im not ok, i feel like im slowly sinking, like everything’s falling apart around me and i just dnt kno what to do about it
mistakes i made over 3 years ago dominate our relationship
he wnt spk to me about anything or express any emotion because of it
and yet he says he’s forgiven me
i kno he hasnt
he might not kno it, but i do
i kno he doesnt trust me
and it makes me wonder how he can love me
if its all just a lie
i rely on him too much
he says he relies on me too but its not the same, not true, he doesnt need me the way i need him
i just want someone to look after me
im scared
hes all i have
without him…theres noone else…
and im scared that thats all this will become
that im just here because there’s nowhere else to be, noone else to be with
its not like that at the moment
i love him
but i feel so alone and all i have is him and these feelings are getting bigger and bigger
and it scares me so much
i want things bak the way they were
i want us to make each other happy
i try
i really tried hard
i just dnt kno what to do
i feel like he’s let me down
again
and i cant say anything
because its all my fault, it all comes bak to me fucking up, and nothing he does can ever be as bad as what i did
im tired of crying
i feel so alone, and empty, and numb
i can def. relate to alot of that
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I’m sorry you are feeling this way. I hope things get better. I’m not quite sure what’s going on with you, but if you want to talk, I’m here for you. <3
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