baby and whatnot.

Haven’t written in a while- things be cray.

My mom is here, staying with us until tomorrow when her and my dad will go to a hotel with the dogs, for 2 nights, until they move into their new house on June 1. I’m so excited to see the house! The pictures look awesome and it has a nice pool, which Lucy will love. She’s been a swimming machine lately.

I met my midwife and I LOVE HER. I am so happy I made this decision. She spent so much time with me just talking and listening to what I had to say. My old OB didn’t even know my name let alone listen to me. This is going to be great!!! I feel so comfortable, I wish I would have gone with her for my first baby.

Paul is so busy with his regular job and then his second job- fishing charters. He’s had a bunch of trips and made great money so far. Maybe not quite as many trips as he would ultimately like to be booking per week, but he’s pretty much had 2 trips every weekend. That’s at least 800.00 extra each week, minus what he spends in gas and sometimes bait when they don’t fly fish. Hes been busy and sleep deprived but I think he is happy with that. He is busy doing what he loves. Of course he hates his regular job though. And I hate it too. Jon is such a scumbag dick. This summer will be rough for paul at the other restaurant getting shit on, which he doesn’t deserve. But then comes bonus time and his raise. And then our new baby. And then my last year of school. So we can make it.

School is so boring, material wise—- we talk about stupid shit like critical thinking and professionalism. Gag me. Its getting a little more interesting though, with medication dosing and stuff like that. Christina is the best and Im so glad we are doing this together. We are very alike and get along so well. We laugh and talk in between the lectures and we help each other with the class work. I’m still ecstatic to be in the program, its just dry in the beginning. Next semester will be much better.

I’m 11w1d today according to my LMP; still haven’t booked my ultrasound to confirm the dates. But im getting my bloodwork today, and hopefully next week ill get my ultrasound, and then I see the midwife again on the 10th of june. I am still really tired but the nausea is down to 10%. Now im having a lot more trouble sleeping though. Lucy cried at 6:10am this morning which is very unusual. I got her back down but couldn’t go back to sleep, and I didn’t have to be up today until 8. But here I am. And I cant fall asleep until like 11:30 usually, then I wake up a bunch to pee. But otherwise I’m doing ok. Very moody and emotional lately but it comes and goes. Its also stressful not seeing Paul but for 5 minutes a day, and having my mom staying with us (though shes been cleaning and doing the the dishes everyday and watching lucy so im not complaining!) and school on top of things, and I picked up extra shifts at work. We need the money- its not like pauls fishing money is going into our checking account. He has a separate account for his business and its all just going into that, feeding the business. He will need to buy a new trailer asap, then a truck, since we only have 1 vehicle. We make way less money than what would qualify us for WIC with the new baby, which would just mean some help with groceries, but I would feel so bad taking it. we live off my student loans and we are making ends meet. But I feel like we’re in such a hole when you look at the big picture. I don’t know- I think I will look into the WIC and decide from there.

im suddenly starving- write again later.