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Thanks for the positive feedback on my last entry.

I finished orientation today. I cant wait to be a nurse. Its going to be a long road. We DONT have classes next summer, unfortunately for my plans, so it will be 2 years from now that I graduate. I was really hoping 5 semesters meant 5 in a row, nonstop. Good news is, I will have about 3 weeks at home with my newborn, go back for spring semester, and then have the summer off with my kiddos. I will be working but I will have flexibility in that and some control of my hours. So I can get through about 4 months of being away from my baby and PUMPING- the theme of 2014 is going to be pumping— but then there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I wish I could finish school sooner, but this is me seeing the positive in the situation.

It sure seems like a long walk to get here. I’ve already been in school AGAIN, since Lucy was 6 months old. Not to mention the years of school I did in Michigan and then NAU. I don’t know if I can stand another 2 year standstill. But it will be a life changing 2 years of nursing school, that’s for sure.

Christina is in my program and I just love her. She has a 2 year old and a 7 month old. We are so alike and really get along. I adore her.

Cant wait for Wednesday when I meet my midwife and see this nugget on the monitor.

Cant wait to find out what we’re having….still haven’t decided what we’re doing about that…but we have time.

Our girl name is set in stone, Isla. Middle name to be determined but I’m thinking Paige or Ellen but haven’t ran it by Paul yet. Boy name as of now is Eli, but Paul wants to think of others. He isn’t 100% sold but likes it. Just wants to think of his own ideas I think. I would want the middle name to be Stephen after my grandpa or Michael after my dad. I know he wont go for Michael because then it wouldn’t be his family, blah blah blah…..I DONT want to name my babies after his WT family.

My emotions and mood have been so all over the place. Irritable and bitchy at times but I remember that from last time. Also eating weird but definitely hungry now. Mustard was amazing today.

No idea what I’m having. I don’t get how people can just sense it. I think its a 50 50 guess and some people just happen to be right. Theres no way you can just tell what youre having accurately. For a minute I thought I was feeling boy, because I was sort of assuming for some reason boy….but it passed and now I don’t know.

In law issues will always be there but as of right now I’ve got them in better check than I did a couple weeks ago. They will be 3 hours away. Not sure how that will work out because I don’t want to be making that drive very often, but don’t want them close either. Wish they would stay in Michigan and I could see them once a year. Haha. Not realistic because me and Paul both admit we will never travel to Michigan. And they aren’t welcome to stay in our house, so….where does that leave us? Guess I will be driving to Hudson when they start to get up my ass about seeing Lucy.