Getting Pushed

I have been in physical therapy for the neuropathy in my feet–not caused by any illness or disease.  I have it for the same reason Mom used to give for things: "just because."  Anyway I have been in physical therapy for a little while and I have realized I am not motivated by being pushed.  For example, I do deep water aerobics twice a week.  So as the PT was setting my new goals, she said she wanted me to exercise in the water four times a week.  I believe in being honest, so I told her my life does not allow me to go to deep water classes fopur times a week.  She said I must.  Two times isn’t enough.  I said work prevents this from happening.  She said I didn’t need a class to exercise in the water.  I tried to understand why splashing around in the water without direction was good, but she insisted.  Four times a week.  So I said, "Okay," knowing I wasn’t going to quit my job to do this.

So pushing (if one is good, three are better) does not motivate me.  In fact, it makes me balk.  It fails to acknowledge that I am pushing myself as hard as possible in the moment.  It fails to understand what I need and want.  It fails to allow me into the conversation.

*sigh* peace~~~